Will do! It's going be in in late June or July.
Please enjoy!

Today (Wednesday) I went to work (rather than yesterday), and was able to get everything done. And the traffic situation coming home wasn't bad at all.

I had to call in sick yesterday because I was walking weird and stuff.  I found out yesterday that I had some king of virous or something draining my energy.  Think I'll just sign off now.  They had me scrubbing a bunch of potatoes

I personally have been trying to shore myself up and try to continue onwards with or without my internal motivations. It has been quite challenging for me as of late. The reality of my entire situation has really taken shape in front of my eyes and I am helpless to try and stem that tide. The emptiness I was able to contain last year has really been biting away at me again this year. I am 18 years old, a senior in high school. My mom is still in dire straits with her health as well as my dad. My dad has infuriatingly enough not done any cardiac rehab, is smoking cigars till no tommorow and I personally have noticed him drinking a bit more often. I really just want to look him in the eye and make him realize he is essentially killing himself with these actions. We cannot do anything about it and it is so toxic. He has been a lot more easy going since the heart attack but all of this just infuriates me to no end. Its like it never happened. He did go back to work which I am enternally thankful for which has righted our families finances. The only thing however is I was promised a car as soon as I could drive. Both my older brothers were given nice cars in the past two years (2007 Mercury Milan Premier and 2008 Nissan Altima 2.5 S) but my parents motivations seem to be the exact opposite when it comes to me and I am really feeling like I was given the short end of the stick in that regard. I would have saved up for a car last year if I had known but now I am stuck in a purgatory of sorts. The stresses of my family's situation has really taken a toll on me. My Grandma has been going through a hard time. I have been trying to hangout with her more often and it has been a joy. She misses my Grandpa so much, the fact he was trying to say something to her before he died and she could not hear him has really been haunting her. She does not sleep more than 3 hours a night and spends most of her time watching reruns of Everybody Loves Raymond as it really reminds her of our family before Grandpa died. 
This past few weeks I have been trying to find a way to increase my self esteem and self confidence after having those shaken in the past 6 months. I was on track with losing weight last year and was down to around 290 come late August. All of the stresses I have faced has since Labor Day 2017 has really put a toll on my health. Mentally and physically. I have gained some of the weight I lost back. What I have been trying to do since a week or two ago is increase my vitamins exponentially to keep my metabolism moving. This paired with eating only 2,000 calories max a day. As soon as the weather warms up I will be walking home daily as I often do and trying to exercise more. With me being as big as I am with my height and body this could work to my advantage. I am hoping come summer I will be down to around 280-270 pounds and losing weight. Ideally I want to be around 230 pounds come College so I can ride the Freshman 15 with a stride. I recently bought some nike zippered shorts that I thought were just so fantastic, but they are quite a tight fit. I am making fitting into those comfortably a goal for me. I want to be able to fit comfortably on all of the rollercoasters. While I surprised myself with Cedar Point in July 2017 by being able to fit on all of the major rollercoasters except Wicked Twister and Cedar Creek, I really just want to feel alive. I really have a terrible self esteem when it comes to how I look so I really hope to take this all in stride.

^ Seems like you're going through a lotta stuff there. Best of luck to you in all you do.

I personally have been trying to shore myself up and try to continue onwards with or without my internal motivations. It has been quite challenging for me as of late. The reality of my entire situation has really taken shape in front of my eyes and I am helpless to try and stem that tide. The emptiness I was able to contain last year has really been biting away at me again this year. I am 18 years old, a senior in high school. My mom is still in dire straits with her health as well as my dad. My dad has infuriatingly enough not done any cardiac rehab, is smoking cigars till no tommorow and I personally have noticed him drinking a bit more often. I really just want to look him in the eye and make him realize he is essentially killing himself with these actions. We cannot do anything about it and it is so toxic. He has been a lot more easy going since the heart attack but all of this just infuriates me to no end. Its like it never happened. He did go back to work which I am enternally thankful for which has righted our families finances. The only thing however is I was promised a car as soon as I could drive. Both my older brothers were given nice cars in the past two years (2007 Mercury Milan Premier and 2008 Nissan Altima 2.5 S) but my parents motivations seem to be the exact opposite when it comes to me and I am really feeling like I was given the short end of the stick in that regard. I would have saved up for a car last year if I had known but now I am stuck in a purgatory of sorts. The stresses of my family's situation has really taken a toll on me. My Grandma has been going through a hard time. I have been trying to hangout with her more often and it has been a joy. She misses my Grandpa so much, the fact he was trying to say something to her before he died and she could not hear him has really been haunting her. She does not sleep more than 3 hours a night and spends most of her time watching reruns of Everybody Loves Raymond as it really reminds her of our family before Grandpa died.
This past few weeks I have been trying to find a way to increase my self esteem and self confidence after having those shaken in the past 6 months. I was on track with losing weight last year and was down to around 290 come late August. All of the stresses I have faced has since Labor Day 2017 has really put a toll on my health. Mentally and physically. I have gained some of the weight I lost back. What I have been trying to do since a week or two ago is increase my vitamins exponentially to keep my metabolism moving. This paired with eating only 2,000 calories max a day. As soon as the weather warms up I will be walking home daily as I often do and trying to exercise more. With me being as big as I am with my height and body this could work to my advantage. I am hoping come summer I will be down to around 280-270 pounds and losing weight. Ideally I want to be around 230 pounds come College so I can ride the Freshman 15 with a stride. I recently bought some nike zippered shorts that I thought were just so fantastic, but they are quite a tight fit. I am making fitting into those comfortably a goal for me. I want to be able to fit comfortably on all of the rollercoasters. While I surprised myself with Cedar Point in July 2017 by being able to fit on all of the major rollercoasters except Wicked Twister and Cedar Creek, I really just want to feel alive. I really have a terrible self esteem when it comes to how I look so I really hope to take this all in stride.


I know that you and your family has been through some very rough times since the big crash, and you all have my sympathy.  Nothing I can say will make things better for you, but please know that you have my support (for what it's worth) and my hopes that things get better for you.  What little advice I can offer would be to try to avoid feeling hurt over the car issue and have a man to man with your dad.  Express  your concerns about his smoking and drinking, but don't be judgment, just let him know that you are worried.  Best of luck

An after thought:  I'll bet that what your Grandpa said to your Grandma was "I love you more than ever and thank you for all the wonderful years we had together".  Try that on Grandma, at the least you'll get a hug.  At best, she will adopt that scenario (maybe over time) and find a peace.  Just a thought, and I hope it works.  I faced a similar dilemma with my mother - not exactly the same, but similar

Today (Friday) I didn't have any place to go. It was raining anyway.

Tomorrow I will be going with my family to have lunch with a family member (namely, a cousin on my mom's dad's side). We are going to have lunch at the same place where we dined with some out-of-town friends last month.

Snow has returned here, with the "Mini-Beast from the East", coming over from Russia!

Today (Friday) I didn't have any place to go. It was raining anyway.

Tomorrow I will be going with my family to have lunch with a family member (namely, a cousin on my mom's dad's side). We are going to have lunch at the same place where we dined with some out-of-town friends last month.

Change of plans... the cousin called here this morning and said he was feeling sick, so our plans are cancelled and we'll have to meet another time.

We bought a car on Friday, we pick it up next week.

Elizabeth came home from uni for the Easter holiday.

James took his senior black belt today and passed.

We've had another fall of snow, which cancelled an orienteering event we were supposed to go to,but the roads have cleared during the day.

Spending the last week's in my neighborhood since I'm moving in April.

I listened to both my W's CD's and a picture from the past.  When I was a teenager, there was a sunday school I went to.  Another kid told us about the W's.  I loved the Man and Wife that taught the class.  After teaching the class, they left for Africa

We bought a car on Friday, we pick it up next week.

Elizabeth came home from uni for the Easter holiday.

James took his senior black belt today and passed.

We've had another fall of snow, which cancelled an orienteering event we were supposed to go to,but the roads have cleared during the day.



Congrats to James.

We, too just bought a new car about a month ago. We weren't in the market for one since our Civic was only 2 years old, but the Honda place made us an offer we couldn't refuse. It is basically the same car only 2 years newer. Our payments are the same-actually a $1 less but we have 2 more years on the loan. We had our choice of a candy apple red or a silver. Even though the red one was beautiful, it yells to every cop, "Here I am. Come and get me." So we chose the silver-but I kind of liked our gray better. No money was exchanged-just the cars. I'm wondering if they are going to make us the same offer in 2 years.



Cat

still could hear back when I was a teen, but lots of things to deal with to.                  anyway


my mom wants me to go to  music class  alright but I'm going to sing my parodies.  I got a couple Runaround Sue parodies' a road again , and a love potion parody. 

We bought a car on Friday, we pick it up next week.

Elizabeth came home from uni for the Easter holiday.

James took his senior black belt today and passed.

We've had another fall of snow, which cancelled an orienteering event we were supposed to go to,but the roads have cleared during the day.

Congrats to James.

Hope you enjoy your new car when you pick it up!

Yesterday was a good day for me; today was a busy work day.

On Thursday when I go to and from work I am going to have to be especially careful because we're supposed to get lots of rain, and I haven't had much experience driving in heavy rain (at least not lately).

Happy Spring Equinox to everyone!

Ostara - spring begins. A good time to free yourself of anything holding you back and make plans for progress.  :) :)

It is theorized that Oestre, goddess of spring, renewal and fertility, was honored at this time; her symbols are rabbits, baby animals and yep- eggs.  ;)

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Update... I actually won't be going into work the rest of the week. Instead I'm going to work three days next week: Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. This is so that I don't have to commute to and from work in the rain on Thursday. I talked with my boss on the phone a couple hours ago (she texted me after I got home) and we arranged my schedule; she wants me to be safe and not have to deal with torrential downpour.

It was snowing hard today so I used my own judgement and asked if I can leave an hour early before it really got rough outside, they were nice enough so they let me leave.

It was snowing hard today so I used my own judgement and asked if I can leave an hour early before it really got rough outside, they were nice enough so they let me leave.

That's good.  :)

I had thought of using that option in case I went to work tomorrow; my boss had even suggested it when we discussed whether or not I should come in. But like I said, we decided on a working schedule of alternate days.

All y'all experiencing this crazy weather, stay safe!

All y'all experiencing this crazy weather, stay safe!


New York wound up with about 8,9 inches of snow, I may have to spend the day shoveling this mess!  :P God, I want Spring so bad.

Springtime seems to be delayed in southern California too, with more heavy rain falling. Right now it is comin' down pretty good, and I'm glad I didn't have to go to work today in it.

Springtime seems to be delayed in southern California too, with more heavy rain falling. Right now it is comin' down pretty good, and I'm glad I didn't have to go to work today in it.


I think your boss has been more than understanding.  However I don't think you should let the weather dictate your life. Perhaps you should try and go out with another driver (mom or dad) when it is raining reasonably hard.  Get their advice on what to do or not. 

In general, slow down a little, remember your stopping distance is reduced in the wet so give yourself a little more thinking time by keeping back from the car in front..  Takes corners steadily.  Know where your lights and wiper controls are.

got home at 8:30 last night.  Downpour driving up and going back.  Now to see how it will be here and if I have any flowers blooming

In general, slow down a little, remember your stopping distance is reduced in the wet so give yourself a little more thinking time by keeping back from the car in front..  Takes corners steadily.  Know where your lights and wiper controls are.

My parents were also concerned earlier this week about me driving in the heavy rain. They know how dangerous it can be, not just with the condition of the roads, but also the fact that other drivers tend to be reckless in the rain.

I had even considered leaving the house at least ten minutes earlier than usual, if I'd absolutely needed to drive to the office today, just to give myself more time. But that was not needed.

I made another job application today - one for a position fairly close to where I live; whether or not I get contacted for any further steps remains to be seen.

On Monday my bus trainer is going to help me get to a shopping area with a Target and Michales.

I made another job application today - one for a position fairly close to where I live; whether or not I get contacted for any further steps remains to be seen.


Good Luck. O0

Good Luck. O0

thank you. Maybe I'll hear something about it next week.

On Monday my bus trainer is going to help me get to a shopping area with a Target and Michales.

Good luck with that. Are you gonna apply for work at either place?

no  I'm still just a dish washer and need more training. 

no  I'm still just a dish washer and need more training.

oh, I see.

So today was a so-so day for me overall.

Tomorrow I go to the office; I expect to be quite busy.

I expect to be busy shopping.  Time will tell 

^ That reminds me, my dad's birthday is coming up in two weeks and I need to get him a gift and a card.

Lee wanted me to take him , so I did. As you all may have known we had separated. But one day he came to my house and told me he loves me....it was so romantic! ❤ <3 I decided to give him another chance. After all he hadn't done anything wrong and he gave me another chance as well. We separated because I needed more time to myself. ::) But I will never do that again.

In other, he has a birthday coming up and I want us to spend the day together. Since I accepted him again we have been spending more time with each other...which is good. Anyway, he will be 32 on April 15.

I hope everyone is having a great day!

^ Nice that you two reconciled. :) I hope all else is well with you!

^ Nice that you two reconciled. :) I hope all else is well with you!


I am well thank you!

Lee wanted me to take him , so I did. As you all may have known we had separated. But one day he came to my house and told me he loves me....it was so romantic! ❤ <3 I decided to give him another chance. After all he hadn't done anything wrong and he gave me another chance as well. We separated because I needed more time to myself. ::) But I will never do that again.

In other, he has a birthday coming up and I want us to spend the day together. Since I accepted him again we have been spending more time with each other...which is good. Anyway, he will be 32 on April 15.

I hope everyone is having a great day!


That's wonderful that the both of you's got back together, hope it works out well for you this time around.  :)

That's wonderful that the both of you's got back together, hope it works out well for you this time around.  :)


Yeah, and I find we're a lot happier which is good. Thank you Howard!

So what's everyone doing for Easter? Will you be attending church? If you have small children, will you go Easter egg hunting? Or decorate Easter eggs with them?

My sister will be coming down from Boston! Haven't seen her since January. So it should be fun! My mom will make a traditional Easter dinner. Which consists of Cod with condiments, and potatoes. It tastes better than it sounds lol.

Hope everyone's day is wonderful today!

So what's everyone doing for Easter? Will you be attending church?

I for one certainly will. In fact, my parents will be in charge of coordinating the music for most of the Triduum services; that is, on the days leading up to Easter, starting with tomorrow (Holy Thursday). I'm not sure if I'll be going with 'em to the Holy Thursday service tomorrow. If I do, I'll be helping out in one way or another. Then there's Good Friday (which neither I nor my parents will attend). The next day, Saturday, is the Easter 'Vigil' service which is in the evening and usually quite long; my parents and I will be attending that. And then on Easter Sunday morning we'll be at the 9:00 service. After that we are going out for brunch (something we started doing for Easter 15 years ago)!



If you have small children, will you go Easter egg hunting? Or decorate Easter eggs with them?

Ah, memories. I loved doing things like that during my childhood years (up until age 10 or so).




My sister will be coming down from Boston! Haven't seen her since January. So it should be fun! My mom will make a traditional Easter dinner. Which consists of Cod with condiments, and potatoes. It tastes better than it sounds lol.

Hope everyone's day is wonderful today!

Sounds good Jessica, I hope you all have a great time! 8)

So what's everyone doing for Easter? Will you be attending church? If you have small children, will you go Easter egg hunting? Or decorate Easter eggs with them?

My sister will be coming down from Boston! Haven't seen her since January. So it should be fun! My mom will make a traditional Easter dinner. Which consists of Cod with condiments, and potatoes. It tastes better than it sounds lol.

Hope everyone's day is wonderful today!



I'm just hoping that Stop N Shop will give me a day off since they're closing at 5pm Sunday.

I for one certainly will. In fact, my parents will be in charge of coordinating the music for most of the Triduum services; that is, on the days leading up to Easter, starting with tomorrow (Holy Thursday). I'm not sure if I'll be going with 'em to the Holy Thursday service tomorrow. If I do, I'll be helping out in one way or another. Then there's Good Friday (which neither I nor my parents will attend). The next day, Saturday, is the Easter 'Vigil' service which is in the evening and usually quite long; my parents and I will be attending that. And then on Easter Sunday morning we'll be at the 9:00 service. After that we are going out for brunch (something we started doing for Easter 15 years ago)!


That sounds wonderful! We don't do anything on Good Friday either. Mainly for us it's Sunday.




I'm just hoping that Stop N Shop will give me a day off since they're closing at 5pm Sunday.


I hope they do give you the day off. It's the same here they close early Sunday.

That sounds wonderful! We don't do anything on Good Friday either. Mainly for us it's Sunday.




Sometimes I've had to attend the Good Friday liturgy at church (and I did so each of the last two years), but not this time. In fact, I'll be at work tomorrow, so that I can take care of the end-of-the-month accounting duties at my workplace. (That's why I'm not at work today.)

This month almost over wow anyways ready for april!

Sometimes I've had to attend the Good Friday liturgy at church (and I did so each of the last two years), but not this time. In fact, I'll be at work tomorrow, so that I can take care of the end-of-the-month accounting duties at my workplace. (That's why I'm not at work today.)



Well, it's good that you have the day off today. Are you catching up on your hobbies or anything like that to pass the time today? I'm just curious lol. ;D

Well, it's good that you have the day off today. Are you catching up on your hobbies or anything like that to pass the time today? I'm just curious lol. ;D

Yes, three hours ago I started watching the Dodgers game. (I'm a big baseball fan.) Unfortunately the Dodgers did not score any runs against the Giants (at least thru 7 innings) so I'm disappointed. :-\\

Right now my parents are at the church, about ready to start the Holy Thursday service. (They left the house around the time the game started; they had to get to the church at a certain time to get prepared.) I chose not to go this year, but I went last year.

So, apparently a Chinese space station will be falling to earth this weekend and our area is in the yellow zone.
I was born on Friday the 13th. my birthday is approaching and yes, it will be on a Friday so why do I know the
damned thing will fall right on top of my house.  >:(

Last day of March... I went to the library for a couple hours, came home, started feeling a little crummy, rested for several hours... and now I feel better again. :)

I ended this month off pretty nice I threw junk away from my house and i went fishing (we didn't catch anything though)

My pants

Happy Easter everyone!

no more eggs for me

Happy Easter everyone!
I only had a half of an egg!