Can you believe it? The second month of 2017 is upon us already! :o

White rabbits! http://www.inthe00s.com/Smileys/valentine/smiley.gif

Yes indeed!!

White rabbit!

I hope that it is a good month for all of us.

I always look forward to Valentines Day.

I'm getting more and more mentally healthier everyday!

By August, I should be 100% mentally healthy like I never was!  8)  8)  8)

Hopefully this month will be a much better one for me. But I don't have a Valentine sadly. I hope that Phil won't see his shadow cause I'm ready for Spring.

BTW. No one ever asks about miss Q. She hasn't been on here since November. But if any of you are wondering, she's doing good. :)

Another month another year...

Not really optimistic of what is to come but you know whatever....

Hopefully it is a good month for all on here...

I'm not optimistic at all :(

I'm getting more and more mentally healthier everyday!

By August, I should be 100% mentally healthy like I never was!  8)  8)  8)


keep up the good work.  :)

Hopefully this month will be a much better one for me. But I don't have a Valentine sadly. I hope that Phil won't see his shadow cause I'm ready for Spring.


I don't have a valentine either.

February is SOOooooooooo boring!!  ::)  :D  :D

I'm hooked on reading Gone by Michael Grant! I read a third of the book in two days ;D

Also started listening to an audiobook about Julius Caesar.

I'm hooked on reading Gone by Michael Grant! I read a third of the book in two days ;D

Also started listening to an audiobook about Julius Caesar.


I'm finishing a book right now, The Firm by John Grisham. Only 8 more pages!

I'm finishing a book right now, The Firm by John Grisham. Only 8 more pages!


That book is really short, it wouldn't count for my reading challenge, but I might try cheating anyway and hope nobody notices.  ;D :-X

How is it? Do you like it?

That book is really short, it wouldn't count for my reading challenge, but I might try cheating anyway and hope nobody notices.  ;D :-X

How is it? Do you like it?


I love it! Not enough to want a sequel, but it's decent.

The book isn't that short, it's 421 pages.

I love it! Not enough to want a sequel, but it's decent.

The book isn't that short, it's 421 pages.


Oh, Goodreads said it was 75 pages :o

I'll definitely check it out.

Oh, Goodreads said it was 75 pages :o

I'll definitely check it out.


Either a typo, or it's based on very small letters.  ;D

February is SOOooooooooo boring!!  ::)  :D  :D

Agree

^ but it only just started

I get to tell the service place that I want to do a computer graphics class at MJC

I don't have a valentine either.

Often times I don't, but this year I might. Depends on how things go.

Agree


February is that last hill you have to climb before you reach spring!  8)  ;D

I don't have a valentine either.

xcalV-Cmyd8

Happy Groundhog Day!

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I'm finishing a book right now, The Firm by John Grisham. Only 8 more pages!



The Firm is excellent-as is most of John Grisham. I hate the way the movie destroyed the book. We have a whole bunch of his on audio and listened to all that we have. I think he has had a few newer ones come out since we got this Grisham "library." My least favorite of his is Runaway Jury but Carlos really liked it. There are so many that I like but right now they all kind of run together because it has been a while since we listened to them. I think it is time to listen to them again.


Cat

The Firm is excellent-as is most of John Grisham. I hate the way the movie destroyed the book. We have a whole bunch of his on audio and listened to all that we have. I think he has had a few newer ones come out since we got this Grisham "library." My least favorite of his is Runaway Jury but Carlos really liked it. There are so many that I like but right now they all kind of run together because it has been a while since we listened to them. I think it is time to listen to them again.


Cat


Oh, wow. I'll see the movie to see what you mean, anyways!  :o

Been a fairly long day even now.... and I am not feeling in a good situation right now....

Sigh... Im used to it....

Feels like my life is after the 1987 stock market crash....

Been a fairly long day even now.... and I am not feeling in a good situation right now....

Sigh... Im used to it....

Feels like my life is after the 1987 stock market crash....


If I were to use a description, I would describe my life as economically around 1946, when the economy was just recovering from WWII, the Depression, and more.

Get better, TK99.

Oh, wow. I'll see the movie to see what you mean, anyways!  :o



I believe the movie The Client was pretty close to the book (which was also good). Runaway Jury movie was totally different-but like I said, it was my least favorite-both book & movie.



Cat

I think my mom would rather just have me stick to art instead of stuff on computers, which would probably be a better idea for me.  I sure can still draw

Happy Groundhog Day!

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Apparently it will be an early spring here in Ontario; but it felt like winter never came in the first place this year so I'm not sure how useful that prediction is ;D

February is that last hill you have to climb before you reach spring!  8)  ;D


45 more days left.

Happy Groundhog Day!

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He saw his shadow.

not again!

Yesterday My Father found out that one of our cousins had passed away last year at the age of 86 and another one of our cousins had died a couple of years ago and one of the cousin's picture is on a memorial webpage where she is remembered. She was our cousin that My Brother and I always got a chance to visit when we was growing up in the late 70's and early 80's as a kid.  :\'(

^ not good

Busy morning    get to see my psy a little later today.  I see the dentist in a few days and get to see how low I get on cash

Yesterday My Father found out that one of our cousins had passed away last year at the age of 86 and another one of our cousins had died a couple of years ago and one of the cousin's picture is on a memorial webpage where she is remembered. She was our cousin that My Brother and I always got a chance to visit when we was growing up in the late 70's and early 80's as a kid.  :\'(

Sorry for your losses, Howard. :(

Sorry for your losses, Howard. :(


That's OK, Thank You. :)

Live from Modesto It's Saturday Ni                Wait, I think I'm up too early. 

Job interview today.... wish me luck!

^ ok

Job interview today.... wish me luck!


good luck

Job interview today.... wish me luck!


Break a leg.



Cat

You don't really wan't him to break his leg do you?

You don't really wan't him to break his leg do you?



In the theatre it is bad luck to wish someone good-luck so they say, "Break a leg" which means good-luck.


Cat

Job interview today.... wish me luck!


good luck. :)

^^ oh okay  ;)

Yesterday My Father found out that one of our cousins had passed away last year at the age of 86 and another one of our cousins had died a couple of years ago and one of the cousin's picture is on a memorial webpage where she is remembered. She was our cousin that My Brother and I always got a chance to visit when we was growing up in the late 70's and early 80's as a kid.  :\'(

I'm sorry Howard 😔Hugs

Job interview today.... wish me luck!

I hope it went well 😊

I'm sorry Howard 😔Hugs



Thanks. :)

Job interview today.... wish me luck!

I hope it went well for ya. O0

Today was a great day for me. At church I saw a friend of mine who used to work in the library at which I volunteer... apparently she had gone to this church many yrs ago, and periodically comes to it now and then...but I had not known that! So I learned something new today.

Got the job.... gonna be working at my favorite place.... Kings Island! :)

WOOOO :D

And since they were impressed with my knowledge of the park.... they hired me for sales so I will be the person that sells tickets and passes and such...

Was a pretty good weekend... despite only getting 3 hours of sleep last night... I am doing okay.

Hopefully the bottom is in for my depression.

Got the job.... gonna be working at my favorite place.... Kings Island! :)

WOOOO :D

And since they were impressed with my knowledge of the park.... they hired me for sales so I will be the person that sells tickets and passes and such...

Was a pretty good weekend... despite only getting 3 hours of sleep last night... I am doing okay.

Hopefully the bottom is in for my depression.


Congrats.



Cat

Got the job.... gonna be working at my favorite place.... Kings Island! :)

WOOOO :D

And since they were impressed with my knowledge of the park.... they hired me for sales so I will be the person that sells tickets and passes and such...

Was a pretty good weekend... despite only getting 3 hours of sleep last night... I am doing okay.

Hopefully the bottom is in for my depression.


Do you get to stay in the shade? :D

Congrats!

Congrats.



Cat

Thanks! :)

Do you get to stay in the shade? :D

Congrats!

I SURE DO! :D

Got the job.... gonna be working at my favorite place.... Kings Island! :)

WOOOO :D

And since they were impressed with my knowledge of the park.... they hired me for sales so I will be the person that sells tickets and passes and such...

Was a pretty good weekend... despite only getting 3 hours of sleep last night... I am doing okay.

Hopefully the bottom is in for my depression.


Well done, man. O0 This is excellent news.

Got the job.... gonna be working at my favorite place.... Kings Island! :)

WOOOO :D

And since they were impressed with my knowledge of the park.... they hired me for sales so I will be the person that sells tickets and passes and such...

Was a pretty good weekend... despite only getting 3 hours of sleep last night... I am doing okay.

Hopefully the bottom is in for my depression.


cool

I got my dentist appointment at 2  and get to be broke for a few months if I am to pay it of fall by myself.

^ On a similar note, my mom has a dental appointment tomorrow morning. And for her, it comes at a time when she has an issue in her mouth that's bothering her (particularly when she eats certain foods). So, she's gonna have that issue looked into.

I'm not sure why teeth aren't considered a possible health problem, but I have to pay for all of it. 

Got the job.... gonna be working at my favorite place.... Kings Island! :)

WOOOO :D

And since they were impressed with my knowledge of the park.... they hired me for sales so I will be the person that sells tickets and passes and such...

Was a pretty good weekend... despite only getting 3 hours of sleep last night... I am doing okay.

Hopefully the bottom is in for my depression.


Congratulations. O0

Got the job.... gonna be working at my favorite place.... Kings Island! :)

WOOOO :D

And since they were impressed with my knowledge of the park.... they hired me for sales so I will be the person that sells tickets and passes and such...

Was a pretty good weekend... despite only getting 3 hours of sleep last night... I am doing okay.

Hopefully the bottom is in for my depression.

Congrats!

First of all, The bank showed that I had 600 more dollars then I thought I did.  If so, then my dental work is payed for.

2  I should not try to make the high score in three games at a time again.  I'm sure the cold outside isn't helping.

First of all, The bank showed that I had 600 more dollars then I thought I did.  If so, then my dental work is payed for.

2  I should not try to make the high score in three games at a time again.  I'm sure the cold outside isn't helping.


I'm glad you have money$$$. I just got money for Vietnamese New Year a few weeks ago! It's tradition.

Congrats!


Congratulations. O0


Well done, man. O0 This is excellent news.

Thank you all... :)

Guess I am used to this by now.... the weekend was great and everything... but the week has just given me a bitter pill of reality I guess....

At least I had a great weekend.... theres that...  :)

Past two days have been a little hard on me.... January and February are always some of the most depressing months of the year.

by the way...


^ On a similar note, my mom has a dental appointment tomorrow morning. And for her, it comes at a time when she has an issue in her mouth that's bothering her (particularly when she eats certain foods). So, she's gonna have that issue looked into.

My mom said that she found out it wasn't a major issue; the problem was taken care of without too much trouble.

And I had another busy workday today, although I had to drive to and from work in the rain.

past couple of days I've just wanted to record my parodies so bad.  I seem to have no motivation to want to go to work or college any more.

Yesterday I kind of rested my arms and legs, but I think I mostly have such bad arthritis everywhere.

I hate this much cold    I hate having a bedroom thats only half the with of a bedroom, I hate having to walk across all the hard floor in this house I hate how hard I have to press on the microwave buttons I hate bottles of things that are hard to press I hate being told that there's corn chips in the cabnet when I'm already looking right at them. I hate my laptop, just mostly having having the screen and keyboard together  my glasses fall of  when lookig down and I cant type without hitting the touchpad.

gotta sign off now and see what mom wants to say to me.

past couple of days I've just wanted to record my parodies so bad.  I seem to have no motivation to want to go to work or college any more.

Yesterday I kind of rested my arms and legs, but I think I mostly have such bad arthritis everywhere.

I hate this much cold    I hate having a bedroom thats only half the with of a bedroom, I hate having to walk across all the hard floor in this house I hate how hard I have to press on the microwave buttons I hate bottles of things that are hard to press I hate being told that there's corn chips in the cabnet when I'm already looking right at them. I hate my laptop, just mostly having having the screen and keyboard together  my glasses fall of  when lookig down and I cant type without hitting the touchpad.

gotta sign off now and see what mom wants to say to me.


I didn't know you had arthritis. Usually people don't get it until they're a lot older. But I'm not a doctor, so I don't know.

I seem to have places all over that bother me.  Cooler weather isn't helping me and we don't even have a winter here.  Shoulder bersidous isn't fun either.

Well I got me a crazy fix for finger pressure, cut some of those stupid party favor fingers, the plastic is helpful

I think it wouldn't be a bad idea for me to look at how much an apartment room might cost or what living in a rest home might be like.  It may help tell me how much I needto do something like a job or just end up in a rest home or something because I'm just going crazy. I just seem to want to do some videos.

Well I went to the walk in clinic today trying to figure out why my knee was sore? It turns out that it wasn't even my knee that was the problem.  They took some x-rays of my entire lower body, my knees and hips, and the doctor discovered that I have an old injury to my hip, a hip fracture, that's affected my gait, the way I walk. 
The doctor said that I may need to have my hip replaced sometime in the future to correct this.  I'm glad that I don't need to have it done right away because I'm just too young to have something that extreme done but he said that it's better to have it done sooner rather than later.  :)  So it's something that I need to consider.

^get it done soon or you'll end up with all kinds of problems all over.

buy the way, I get my right hip hurting on and off all the time.  My mom says thats normal.

^get it done soon or you'll end up with all kinds of problems all over.


I will get it done.  Don't worry.  :) I need it in order to get pain relief.  :) The doctor said that any reputable orthopedic surgeon would take one look at me and refuse to do it right now because of my age.

I will get it done.  Don't worry.  :) I need it in order to get pain relief.  :) The doctor said that any reputable orthopedic surgeon would take one look at me and refuse to do it right now because of my age.


I was reading an article recently which said that, because replacement hips last longer nowadays, it is better to do them sooner rather than later.  Traditionally doctors waited until you were a certain age and/or a minimum amount of incapacity.  However if you are younger and fitter then you will get more benefit and your health and strength won't have deteriorated much so you will recover from the operation more quickly and be more likely to return to full fitness.

You know what, I think I'm going crazy because I don't know if I can take care of myself anyway.  Now she's worried about me not working. I think I wouldn't mind trying an experiment maybe for a month or 3 and see if I can figure out if I can manage to live by myself in an apartment room if 'll be able to afford doing that. I'm going to mention this to my psy as well as my mom.  My depression has been this deep, why live? Can I live?  The purpose of me getting some work experence  is getting better doctors. 

I was reading an article recently which said that, because replacement hips last longer nowadays, it is better to do them sooner rather than later.  Traditionally doctors waited until you were a certain age and/or a minimum amount of incapacity.  However if you are younger and fitter then you will get more benefit and your health and strength won't have deteriorated much so you will recover from the operation more quickly and be more likely to return to full fitness.


Yes that's true but sometimes the surgeon will refuse to do it on someone as young as I am.  I'm only 40 and I was doing an aquafit class at the Y several months ago.  If not for the x rays we would have never found that injury.  :)

Found a few job listings to apply to today. Even though I enjoy my current part time position, I do think it would be good to eventually work elsewhere, especially somewhere closer to home. So we'll see what becomes of my applications.

Found a few job listings to apply to today. Even though I enjoy my current part time position, I do think it would be good to eventually work elsewhere, especially somewhere closer to home. So we'll see what becomes of my applications.


Karma.

Karma.

Thanks dude. O0 My eventual goal is to have something full time.

I will get it done.  Don't worry.  :) I need it in order to get pain relief.  :) The doctor said that any reputable orthopedic surgeon would take one look at me and refuse to do it right now because of my age.


What kind of medication are you taking?

  I want to remember to add in my printout that when mom wanted to talk with me, it was about hearing.  She was saying something about using something in both ears and it sounding like she was mad at me.  I haven't wanted to use two things in the past and have old doctor records that I should get an implant in each head.  Anyway, the doctor thinks I would do the best with my pocket talker.  That's what I did one day, I listened to some music with the pocket talker.  There were a couple of songs I put my implant on and listened to them without the pocket talker and noticed I hear the music better with the implant and speech better with the pocket talker.  So I just figured out that two different types of devices will work best for me.

you need to use something in both ears      something  something something

your brain needs to adjust    something something something ( I know this damit)

  I want to remember to add in my printout that when mom wanted to talk with me, it was about hearing.  She was saying something about using something in both ears and it sounding like she was mad at me.  I haven't wanted to use two things in the past and have old doctor records that I should get an implant in each head.  Anyway, the doctor thinks I would do the best with my pocket talker.  That's what I did one day, I listened to some music with the pocket talker.  There were a couple of songs I put my implant on and listened to them without the pocket talker and noticed I hear the music better with the implant and speech better with the pocket talker.  So I just figured out that two different types of devices will work best for me.

you need to use something in both ears      something  something something

your brain needs to adjust    something something something ( I know this damit)


I'm glad you've found a solution, and some progress.  :)

^ well I'd still have to figure it all out and stuff where I'm finally going to be and what the cost might be, but I'm just pist with my mom again.  I think I need that phone so I can hike to the Mc Donalds by our house or hop on the bus.  If mom calls me I can tell her I'm fine and hang upon her.  I gotta take my stand at some point of time,  If I can maybe just hold on a little more to see if I can hear a little more.

^ well I'd still have to figure it all out and stuff where I'm finally going to be and what the cost might be, but I'm just pist with my mom again.  I think I need that phone so I can hike to the Mc Donalds by our house or hop on the bus.  If mom calls me I can tell her I'm fine and hang upon her.  I gotta take my stand at some point of time,  If I can maybe just hold on a little more to see if I can hear a little more.


Sometimes life, or God, makes us wait a little more than we want to wait.

Right now, I'm waiting for my mental health to get better. It can be frustrating at times!

What kind of medication are you taking?


I'm not taking anything for pain relief yet.  I'm trying to treat it naturally.  I don't have a family doctor either.  I've been on the waiting list for a doctor for years.  ::)

yeah, know about waiting.  I didn't say it in the post here but mom handed me an instruction book for an old hearing aid I had and said I want you to understand this.  She mean just how to use the hearing aid or that I need to use it with whatever?  Anyway I'll try the thing that will squeak in my ear until it's in right and make me deaf by the time I get it in.  I wish she would just say try it instead of using the word you and offending me.

I've wondered earlier, even if I do get better doctors, if I do end up in a rest home or something, would they take me to wherever these better doctors might be or will they just take me wherever?

The videos are also on my heart and I think my heart wants a chance for once in it's live to do something.  My mom keeps telling me about jobs vrs hobbies and it's just giving me a feeling that I'm never going to get my video's done.

yeah, know about waiting.  I didn't say it in the post here but mom handed me an instruction book for an old hearing aid I had and said I want you to understand this.  She mean just how to use the hearing aid or that I need to use it with whatever?  Anyway I'll try the thing that will squeak in my ear until it's in right and make me deaf by the time I get it in.  I wish she would just say try it instead of using the word you and offending me.

I've wondered earlier, even if I do get better doctors, if I do end up in a rest home or something, would they take me to wherever these better doctors might be or will they just take me wherever?

The videos are also on my heart and I think my heart wants a chance for once in it's live to do something.  My mom keeps telling me about jobs vrs hobbies and it's just giving me a feeling that I'm never going to get my video's done.


In the words of Tom Petty

But the waiting is the hardest part
every year is one more yard

You take it on faith you take it to heart
But the waiting is the hardest part

I'm not taking anything for pain relief yet.  I'm trying to treat it naturally.  I don't have a family doctor either.  I've been on the waiting list for a doctor for years.  ::)



hope you find a doctor soon before it gets any worse.

In the words of Tom Petty

But the waitin is the hardest part
every year is one more yard

You take it on faith you take it to heart
But the waiting is the hardest part

In the words of Tom Petty

But the waitin is the hardest part
every year is one more yard

You take it on faith you take it to heart
But the waiting is the hardest part


This song came to mind

God?  I seam to have had so many inetresting things happen to me at interesting times and I do seem to get answers to prayers after praying.  I think there is a higher something.  Devil? love the red guy. there's a cartoon called No Smoking or something where he is in hel.  Spiritual warfare?  negitive and positive would be my guess.

hope you find a doctor soon before it gets any worse.


I've coped with this very well for a long time.  I can cope with this for as long as it takes for me to find a GP.  :)

I've coped with this very well for a long time.  I can cope with this for as long as it takes for me to find a GP.  :)


Is it hard to get up in the morning with pain? ???

today is try that hearing aid in my ear day

today is try that hearing aid in my ear day


Good luck.  :)

today is try that hearing aid in my ear day


If it squeaks at you look at the volume setting, it might need turning down.

Sometimes they just squeak as you put them in because the two parts get too close together - it's like feedback from a speaker/microphone combination

Is it hard to get up in the morning with pain? ???


Yes sometimes I have difficulty walking when I need to.  But I manage.  :)


today is try that hearing aid in my ear day


If you find that it's squeaking in your ear, as someone here stated, try adjusting the volume until you can hear what's going on around you.

It squeaks if it's not in the ear right.  Wonder if I should try putting the thing in my ear before closing the doorfor the battery :-\\



I heard all of my funk music just great and think I'll try watching some cartoons.

I've been spending much of today completing some job applications. :)

I was out with my mom, neice and grandma today. Were still having money problems. She helps us but even she has troubles cause of paying for him to stay in the home. Also she walks over but gets light headed a lot and falls. And my grandpa is forgetting and remembering things wrong even more than before. My dog has something we need to get checked out at the vet and the cats' shots are due. I still can't find a job. But one positive thing is I'm finally working on getting healthier.

I was out with my mom, neice and grandma today. Were still having money problems. She helps us but even she has troubles cause of paying for him to stay in the home. Also she walks over but gets light headed a lot and falls. And my grandpa is forgetting and remembering things wrong even more than before. My dog has something we need to get checked out at the vet and the cats' shots are due. I still can't find a job. But one positive thing is I'm finally working on getting healthier.


Good luck.  8)

Good luck.  8)

Thanks I need all the luck I can get

I've been spending much of today completing some job applications. :)



good for you. O0

I was out with my mom, neice and grandma today. Were still having money problems. She helps us but even she has troubles cause of paying for him to stay in the home. Also she walks over but gets light headed a lot and falls. And my grandpa is forgetting and remembering things wrong even more than before. My dog has something we need to get checked out at the vet and the cats' shots are due. I still can't find a job. But one positive thing is I'm finally working on getting healthier.


hope everything works out.

good for you. O0

Well, even though I enjoy my current part time job, which is only two days a week, I should have something more. And I've been saying that my eventual goal is to have full time employment.

I don't have a valentine either.


Me three! Independent Valentines!

England beat Wales in the six nations match today. So some people in my house are happy and some are not!

We had friends round earlier to watch the game and then stay for dinner.  No plans for tomorrow

I decided this morning that I was going to go out in my garden so I did.  The clouds  moved on and I ended up being in the sun. 

Green cutworms are a sight to see

and when I had my late lunch..

It's gone cause now I'm eating

Me three! Independent Valentines!

That's kinda how it is for me, in a sense.

England beat Wales in the six nations match today.
O0

I need to figure out how to sleep better. I won't take sleeping medicine, I refuse to so don't suggest it. Not even Benedryl. I thought of putting on a really boring movie though lol

Me three! Independent Valentines!


Ditto.  Valentine's Day is a solo adventure for me too.  :)

2:07 am EDT February 12th, 2017 AD (CE)

Spent my day.... getting a new temps card with a weird coincidence of getting a really bad bloody nose right before taking my picture lol... nothing like causing a scene at your local BMV. :P Guess gives them a bit of comeuppance for the absolute bureaucratic hell they put you through (seriously I saw TWO PEOPLE CUT IN LINE....(a line that was around 30 minutes) and not a single word uttered by a worker... sigh.)

Then went to the Mall... had a nice lunch date with my mother.

Went home.... got my work clothes ready....

Went to work... worked from 6:37 pm to 1239 am.

Now Im home.... letting the night enfold me.

I just spent my entire paycheck on future FUN, with only 39 cents remaining in my bank account I got tickets to Mayday Parade + Knuckle Puck on 4/26 and Real Friends + Tiny Moving Parts on 4/30.... I CANT WAIT! XD My first two concerts a week within each other.... and with two of my top 5 pop punk bands being in the same place within a week of each other is just AHHH! :D

Next on the to do list.... get myself some pop punk shirts... lol! :)

Ive spent the past two weeks trying to find myself I guess which is why I have been very quiet as of late. I have been in a bunch of mood swings, from happy to sad.... one day coming home from school and crying myself to sleep and to another feeling overjoyed and happy... it seems like there is no middle for me... its either good or bad.

2017.

It doesnt feel real that my childhood is essentially 5 years over honestly.... March 2012 was when it all ended... even though it had all been transitioning from that since February 2011 when I found out my family had to foreclose on my childhood home.... among other traumatic things...

June - December 19th 2016 4:46 PM was probably the happiest time I have had in my life honestly.... and it is going to be a while... a long long while.... before I can see myself being that happy again...

December 19th, 2016 4:47 PM - ??? has been quite tough.... so so.... tough....

I have HOPEFULLY finally reached the bottom.... and nowhere to go but up... but it all depends I guess.

Trying to bridge the longstanding conflict I have had with myself for 6 years now.... childhood trauma which to this day is STILL affecting my life...  it has controlled me for far too long now.... something I have never had a chance to sort out.

In a way my life is like this right now...

"I'm a stitch away from making it....and a scar away from falling apart..."

(Fall Out Boy - The (After) Life of the Party)

Im close to making it.... but so scarred that if one more bad thing happens in my life... I would fall apart.... I dont think I can handle a major stressful event in my life right now.... as I am dealing with enough as is...

I fear everyday could have some type of curve ball unseen and throw me off just as I am trying to get on my feet.

In a way.... I am scared of who I see in many ways behind the shell of who I am..... and I will be for quite sometime....

Theres always... tommorow.... for dreams to come true.

Ill be going to find some solace in my dreams.... "follow your dreams" as that one parking toll operator told me on July 22nd 2015 at Busch Gardens Tampa.

Following my bliss to something... thats for sure...

Oh my God, snowing again! And it's freezing cold too!

Had to do our grocery sopping in this weather ::)

I need to figure out how to sleep better. I won't take sleeping medicine, I refuse to so don't suggest it. Not even Benedryl. I thought of putting on a really boring movie though lol


or have the room quiet.

Oh my God, snowing again! And it's freezing cold too!

Had to do our grocery sopping in this weather ::)

Woah dude you get a lot over there! We used to have it all throughout late fall and winter but seldom do we get snow now.

or have the room quiet.

It doesn't help lol I have insomnia.

Oh my God, snowing again! And it's freezing cold too!

Had to do our grocery sopping in this weather ::)


It's snowing a lot here too in the Toronto area. We got 25 centimetres (10 inches)  :(

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It's snowing a lot here too in the Toronto area. We got 25 centimetres (10 inches)  :(


Wow, 10 inches. In my city, we've only had like 4 inches of snow, max, this year!
All the water probably flew to California!  ;D

It has rained more here in Modesto more then I ever think it has.  Usually 2 or 3 not 10 or more.

Found out my grandpa might have to be put in hosipice... it was offered to him. Which means by medical law some doctor has an opinion that he has less than six months to live...

Kind of hard dealing with that.... he is in Stage 4 Leukemia.... I believe it is Acute Myloid Leukemia... my grandpa will soon be gone with the hands of time.

I apologize for my pessimistic outlook atm.... I am just not feeling in a great spot right now....

Kinda felt weird getting my first two negative karma.... did not mean any negative or bad intention so I apologize to you all... I usually extremely vet what I say before I post.

Kinda felt weird getting my first two negative karma.... did not mean any negative or bad intention so I apologize to you all... I usually extremely vet what I say before I post.


Don't worry about the smite from Jessica at the weekend. It's her way of sharing love around the boards. She smite bombs regular members from time to time. I wouldn't stress about either of them.

You seem very upset/depressed in a lot of recent postings.  Have you thought about finding a counsellor to talk to? I think it would be very useful for you to sort out your emotions around things that have happened in the past as these seem to bother you still.

Ditto.  Valentine's Day is a solo adventure for me too.  :)

Kinda that way for me as well, but I do have several young-lady friends in my life, including one whom I usually see at church every weekend. However, I didn't see her yesterday because she and her family spent the day traveling, as I found out on Facebook this morning. So I'm going to mail her a Valentine card today (since I couldn't hand it to her yesterday).

It has rained more here in Modesto more then I ever think it has.  Usually 2 or 3 not 10 or more.

We seem to be finished with rain in southern California for now. Not sure when the next storm is gonna hit.

It has rained more here in Modesto more then I ever think it has.  Usually 2 or 3 not 10 or more.


I hope your place is okay. There are floods in some places!

One good thing is California won't be in a drought anymore.

t's been sunny the past couple days and I've been out in it pulling all the excess weed and stuff.  I went ahead and just put all my seeds in the ground to see if anything would grow although it's better to plant in fall around here, after the heat and no worries of frost.  Nearly all the butterflies that migrate through Modesto Do so in September. 

It's snowing a lot here too in the Toronto area. We got 25 centimetres (10 inches)  :(


NYC had about 9 inches.

Found out my grandpa might have to be put in hosipice... it was offered to him. Which means by medical law some doctor has an opinion that he has less than six months to live...

Kind of hard dealing with that.... he is in Stage 4 Leukemia.... I believe it is Acute Myloid Leukemia... my grandpa will soon be gone with the hands of time.

I apologize for my pessimistic outlook atm.... I am just not feeling in a great spot right now....

Kinda felt weird getting my first two negative karma.... did not mean any negative or bad intention so I apologize to you all... I usually extremely vet what I say before I post.



((hugs))  :)

I hope your place is okay. There are floods in some places!

One good thing is California won't be in a drought anymore.

For this moment, it seems that way, but the rainfall totals are less than what they normally are at this time of year. (That is, season-to-date.) Still, anytime we get the rain, it's a good thing because it is much needed.

We don't get the pouring rain and thunderstorms like some of you do.  What my mom called pouring a week or so ago would probably be a light rain

Found out my grandpa might have to be put in hosipice... it was offered to him. Which means by medical law some doctor has an opinion that he has less than six months to live...

Kind of hard dealing with that.... he is in Stage 4 Leukemia.... I believe it is Acute Myloid Leukemia... my grandpa will soon be gone with the hands of time.

I apologize for my pessimistic outlook atm.... I am just not feeling in a great spot right now....

Kinda felt weird getting my first two negative karma.... did not mean any negative or bad intention so I apologize to you all... I usually extremely vet what I say before I post.

I'm so sorry about your Grandpa :(

Don't worry about the smite from Jessica at the weekend. It's her way of sharing love around the boards. She smite bombs regular members from time to time. I wouldn't stress about either of them.

You seem very upset/depressed in a lot of recent postings.  Have you thought about finding a counsellor to talk to? I think it would be very useful for you to sort out your emotions around things that have happened in the past as these seem to bother you still.

I have been depressed for about 3 months now.... but it all started going downhill for me after December 19th. I wish I could but I dont think I can.... plus being under 18 my parents can see everything I talk about which really really kinda irks me.



((hugs))  :)

Thank you...

I'm so sorry about your Grandpa :(

I know.... I wish I had a bit of a warning.... just in August we all thought he was close to remission.... I guess not..... cancer changes in a blink of an eye...

I have been depressed for about 3 months now.... but it all started going downhill for me after December 19th. I wish I could but I dont think I can.... plus being under 18 my parents can see everything I talk about which really really kinda irks me.
Thank you...
I know.... I wish I had a bit of a warning.... just in August we all thought he was close to remission.... I guess not..... cancer changes in a blink of an eye...


Sending good thoughts your way.

We don't get the pouring rain and thunderstorms like some of you do.  What my mom called pouring a week or so ago would probably be a light rain

Last night I found out on the TV weather forecast that the rain is going to return next weekend.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!  8)

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!  8)


Cheers to love, hope, and happiness on this Valentine's Day!

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Happy National Singles Awareness Day people.

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Sorry that was the wrong video.

I have been depressed for about 3 months now.... but it all started going downhill for me after December 19th. I wish I could but I dont think I can.... plus being under 18 my parents can see everything I talk about which really really kinda irks me.
Thank you...I know.... I wish I had a bit of a warning.... just in August we all thought he was close to remission.... I guess not..... cancer changes in a blink of an eye...


sending you good thoughts.  :)

Cheers to love, hope, and happiness on this Valentine's Day!

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Don't drink too much!  ;D  ;D  :D

I wish I had a huge bottle of Vodka! That would be the perfect valentine. I have went on one valentine romantic date in my life. Back in 2010 with an ex. I've dated several people and had other relationships but that was the only one where I look back and get feels. It ended sh!ttyly. But despite everything, a part of me will always adore him. I last saw him almost 3 years ago but it was Short lived. I thought we might be reconnecting but I was wrong. So we didn't get back together. But it's been over 6 years since we were a couple. Any who, I'm that typical single girl that hates this day cause I don't have someone to spend it with.

I wish I had a huge bottle of Vodka! That would be the perfect valentine. I have went on one valentine romantic date in my life. Back in 2010 with an ex. I've dated several people and had other relationships but that was the only one where I look back and get feels. It ended sh!ttyly. But despite everything, a part of me will always adore him. I last saw him almost 3 years ago but it was Short lived. I thought we might be reconnecting but I was wrong. So we didn't get back together. But it's been over 6 years since we were a couple. Any who, I'm that typical single girl that hates this day cause I don't have someone to spend it with.


It doesn't really bother me being single.

It doesn't really bother me being single.

Me neither, I don't mind being single at this point in my life. I have friends older than me who are also single, so, it's not a problem at all.

Me neither, I don't mind being single at this point in my life. I have friends older than me who are also single, so, it's not a problem at all.


I can do what I want and have nobody tie me down.

Me neither, I don't mind being single at this point in my life. I have friends older than me who are also single, so, it's not a problem at all.


I need time to get to know myself before I commit to somebody else!  :D

I can do what I want and have nobody tie me down.

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I wish I had a huge bottle of Vodka! That would be the perfect valentine. I have went on one valentine romantic date in my life. Back in 2010 with an ex. I've dated several people and had other relationships but that was the only one where I look back and get feels. It ended sh!ttyly. But despite everything, a part of me will always adore him. I last saw him almost 3 years ago but it was Short lived. I thought we might be reconnecting but I was wrong. So we didn't get back together. But it's been over 6 years since we were a couple. Any who, I'm that typical single girl that hates this day cause I don't have someone to spend it with.


Believe me it gets easier for me to be alone on Valentine's day.  I stay single because I choose to not because I want to.  In 2015 I got involved with someone online and it ended before it even started.
He wanted me to be with him and only him.  I agreed. Then I went to see Platinum Blonde in Markham.  I was staying in this really nice hotel and accused my mother of helping me cheat on him.  And that was that. 
I couldn't deal with it anymore and I told him "I don't want to be with you anymore! You're too jealous." ::) 

Believe me it gets easier for me to be alone on Valentine's day.  I stay single because I choose to not because I want to.  In 2015 I got involved with someone online and it ended before it even started.
He wanted me to be with him and only him.  I agreed. Then I went to see Platinum Blonde in Markham.  I was staying in this really nice hotel and accused my mother of helping me cheat on him.   And that was that. 
I couldn't deal with it anymore and I told him "I don't want to be with you anymore! You're too jealous." ::)


Why? He wasn't good enough for you? ???

Why? He wasn't good enough for you? ???


No that wasn't it.  It was the fact that he tried to drag my mother into something that she had no involvement in.  Accuse me of cheating and that's okay.  I don't give a sh!t.  But mess with my mother? That's it! That's something that I won't tolerate.  Especially when I'm off somewhere just having fun as a mother/daughter thing. 
My mother helps me with money and stuff like that but helping me cheat on somebody who professes to "love" me? That's something that she wouldn't do.  Esp when I could have anyone I want.  ::)

I've just started working at my moms grocery store as a 32 hour cashier. I have severe anxiety over cashiering for many reasons. But it's just til a stocking position is open. And I'm still looking for a nice job. My ultimate goal is to become a screen writer or author, which I already am but I mean professionally. At least I'll have money coming in. I'm waiting on my taxes to come back also. But I have the weekend off and then I have a week til I get on the floor. I really hope something better comes along soon.

No that wasn't it. It was the fact that he tried to drag my mother into something that she had no involvement in.  Accuse me of cheating and that's okay.  I don't give a sh!t.  But mess with my mother? That's it! That's something that I won't tolerate.  Especially when I'm off somewhere just having fun as a mother/daughter thing. 
My mother helps me with money and stuff like that but helping me cheat on somebody who professes to "love" me? That's something that she wouldn't do.  Esp when I could have anyone I want.  ::)


That was really dumb. ::)

I've just started working at my moms grocery store as a 32 hour cashier. I have severe anxiety over cashiering for many reasons. But it's just til a stocking position is open. And I'm still looking for a nice job. My ultimate goal is to become a screen writer or author, which I already am but I mean professionally. At least I'll have money coming in. I'm waiting on my taxes to come back also. But I have the weekend off and then I have a week til I get on the floor. I really hope something better comes along soon.


Do you mean 32 hours a week?

I'm just happy things are progressing for you!
Who knows? Maybe one day you'll sell millions of books and you'll buy a mansion!  :D

That was really dumb. ::)


Tell me about it.  I didn't need that so I just made up my own mind. "Look I don't want to be with you because you're too jealous." I trust my instincts and if my instincts are right and I need to just get angry and walk away.

Who knows? Maybe one day you'll sell millions of books and you'll buy a mansion!  :D


Is that how you got your username :o

Is that how you got your username :o


No, I just got Millenium from the Backstreet Boys and mansion, because I was watching Mariah Carey's Honey video and she was in this big house/mansion, at the beginning of the video! So I was listening to 90's music, and things just pop up.  :-X  :-X

Do you mean 32 hours a week?

I'm just happy things are progressing for you!
Who knows? Maybe one day you'll sell millions of books and you'll buy a mansion!  :D

Yes and I do hope I can someday get a mansion.

No, I just got Millenium from the Backstreet Boys and mansion, because I was watching Mariah Carey's Honey video and she was in this big house/mansion, at the beginning of the video! So I was listening to 90's music, and things just pop up.  :-X  :-X

I used to be a huge fan of BSB

I used to be a huge fan of BSB


I wouldn't call myself a fan back then, but I did enjoy their first album!  :D

I used to be a huge fan of BSB


I got the Black & Blue album as a present. The album is fire!

I got the Black & Blue album as a present. The album is fire!

I didn't like the last two albums, but from the Europeon original release of their self-titled debut to Unbreakable they were good releases.

Tell me about it.  I didn't need that so I just made up my own mind. "Look I don't want to be with you because you're too jealous." I trust my instincts and if my instincts are right and I need to just get angry and walk away.


good idea.

Dai is away on a first aid course refresher for outdoor/mountain first aid.

I helped with an orienteering coaching session today, and Elizabeth and James took part.  A new coach planned and lead the session with her regional junior squad and my squad came and joined in.  Dai has been acting as a mentor, so I was giving her feedback on the day and boosting her confidence about her plans.

Then there was a night event.  Elizabeth competed on her own and I went round with James.  It was a good course and we had fun.

We stopped for fish and chips and ate them sat in the car before driving home.

I've just started working at my moms grocery store as a 32 hour cashier. I have severe anxiety over cashiering for many reasons. But it's just til a stocking position is open. And I'm still looking for a nice job. My ultimate goal is to become a screen writer or author, which I already am but I mean professionally. At least I'll have money coming in. I'm waiting on my taxes to come back also. But I have the weekend off and then I have a week til I get on the floor. I really hope something better comes along soon.

Nice, that you've started a job. Wishing you all the best. O0

Dai is away on a first aid course refresher for outdoor/mountain first aid.

I helped with an orienteering coaching session today, and Elizabeth and James took part.  A new coach planned and lead the session with her regional junior squad and my squad came and joined in.  Dai has been acting as a mentor, so I was giving her feedback on the day and boosting her confidence about her plans.

Then there was a night event.  Elizabeth competed on her own and I went round with James.  It was a good course and we had fun.

We stopped for fish and chips and ate them sat in the car before driving home.

Sounds like you had a good time today ;)

yesterday mom and I  went to a craft store.  Mom wanted some beads  and I got me some blue felt in case I might want to make something with it.  Today I've just kind of cleaned my room a little.  I keep all this cardboard and stuff around to make things.  Time to decide if I'm going to use it or loose it.

Nice, that you've started a job. Wishing you all the best. O0

Thanks Jeff, I appreciate it.

I didn't like the last two albums, but from the Europeon original release of their self-titled debut to Unbreakable they were good releases.


I didn't like Unbreakable because that was released after Kevin left the group.  After he left it was never the same as it was before.  8-P 8-P 8-P

yesterday mom and I  went to a craft store.  Mom wanted some beads  and I got me some blue felt in case I might want to make something with it.  Today I've just kind of cleaned my room a little.  I keep all this cardboard and stuff around to make things.  Time to decide if I'm going to use it or loose it.


Is the cardboard and blue felt for your video?

yup blue collar man if I do that and all kind of little puppet things or whatever can be made with cardboard.  You've seen the buggers I've made with my glue gun.  No A1 steak sauce in the fridge, might have to buy one some day.  See if I can find a hot wheels car. If I dont like it or it's not a lambergini I always can draw a pic and tape it on to the car.

I'm all ready to do Change It Black so I might want to do that first or something stupid to introduce myself.  I have everything for my Wand in hand parody.  Th I want to tie it in e Blue collar man will  have less acting and need more music, I may be able to tie it in with something later if I want to tie my stuff in like a story, but lets get some done first.  I was thinking about a vampire bat eat lady fingers one night and thats how I'll become a wolf, do my Red Riding  Hood parody.  I have other wolf parodies, but this one is first.  I know I'd like to do a vampire parody for halloween.

It's my second day of work and I'm so sleepy but I have almost 4 hours left.

It's my second day of work and I'm so sleepy but I have almost 4 hours left.


try to get some sleep when you get home.

So... my late grandparents' house in Palm Desert is finally cleared out (except for a few small items in the garage) and has officially been put on the market! The carpet has been replaced, and the walls have been repainted, so it looks like a new house! Today we drove out there to meet with the realestate agent and make a few payments. This will probably be the last time we go out there for a while... that is until we have a buyer. It'll be great to finally get it off our hands once and for all.

2/21/2017

I feel like it has been a year and I have essentially gone nowhere....

Same place, same grades...

Only difference is that I am in a major depression and have had my heart broken into a million pieces for two months now.

Some good days, but mostly bad...

I woke up today feeling the most rested I have been in quite some time.

But I feel like that makes no difference.

In one week I will be on a Junior Retreat called "Kairos" where you essentially(from what Ive heard) spill your guts to your peers with little judgement.

Oh how surprising my story is gonna be.

The tonnage of what I have been through in this life could stop a semi truck.

2016 feels like a year ago and at the same time doesnt....

I would say from April onwards still feels so fresh in my memory....

I feel I dont know how to even describe it most days.....

"Im a stitch away... from making it.... and a scar away... from falling apart."

(Fall Out Boy - The (After) Life of the Party)

Its like I feel okay and all good, and then suddenly.... it all just happens to switch suddenly into horrible thoughts and feelings and fears and anxieties and everything.

I feel okay, and then I dont....

I want to just pour my guts out and just write what I go through everyday.... but most of the time it seems like I dont even have the motivation to do so.

I want to feel everything I am going through but in most ways I just cant.... I hate when at moments I want to feel I dont feel but when I feel everything it is at the worst moment possible...

Trying to feel also results in my freshly half stitched wound being submissive to any attempt to heal.

Most of the time I just feel helpess and hopeless and feel everything yet dont feel anything and feel like I am moving on yet at the same time feel as if I have been on an treadmill feeling as if I am moving on yet not feeling like I am even moving.... I try so hard but I seem to be stuck on this neverending treadmill.

Sigh....

the bottom is in, but the neverending recovery seems to be paltry at best.

I just feel like I want to feel but I feel like I dont

2/21/2017

I feel like it has been a year and I have essentially gone nowhere....

Same place, same grades...

Only difference is that I am in a major depression and have had my heart broken into a million pieces for two months now.

Some good days, but mostly bad...

I woke up today feeling the most rested I have been in quite some time.

But I feel like that makes no difference.

In one week I will be on a Junior Retreat called "Kairos" where you essentially(from what Ive heard) spill your guts to your peers with little judgement.

Oh how surprising my story is gonna be.

The tonnage of what I have been through in this life could stop a semi truck.

2016 feels like a year ago and at the same time doesnt....

I would say from April onwards still feels so fresh in my memory....

I feel I dont know how to even describe it most days.....

"Im a stitch away... from making it.... and a scar away... from falling apart."

(Fall Out Boy - The (After) Life of the Party)

Its like I feel okay and all good, and then suddenly.... it all just happens to switch suddenly into horrible thoughts and feelings and fears and anxieties and everything.

I feel okay, and then I dont....

I want to just pour my guts out and just write what I go through everyday.... but most of the time it seems like I dont even have the motivation to do so.

I want to feel everything I am going through but in most ways I just cant.... I hate when at moments I want to feel I dont feel but when I feel everything it is at the worst moment possible...

Trying to feel also results in my freshly half stitched wound being submissive to any attempt to heal.

Most of the time I just feel helpess and hopeless and feel everything yet dont feel anything and feel like I am moving on yet at the same time feel as if I have been on an treadmill feeling as if I am moving on yet not feeling like I am even moving.... I try so hard but I seem to be stuck on this neverending treadmill.

Sigh....

the bottom is in, but the neverending recovery seems to be paltry at best.

I just feel like I want to feel but I feel like I dont


Hopefully, the job you have now will keep you busy.  :)

So my sister came down from Boston last Saturday. We had a nice get together at my mom's! :D We made my sister her favorite food dish: Slow simmered chicken with potatoes with spices, over rice. It was soo good of course, because my mom cooked it ;D. We talked some and did some catching up, she talked to Lee some also. I really wish my sister would visit more, it's nice to catch up on things and talk. Hopefully she will soon. :)

I went to church on Sunday, it was really great. But I feel I need to attend more often and socialize more with everyone there. I will definitely go again this coming Sunday! 8)

hi earsfeel like they're bleeding, think my eyes have had it  blue spots. bye

It feels darned good to be back! Long time no see y'all. :) :) :)

It feels darned good to be back! Long time no see y'all. :) :) :)

'Tis always great to see you around here too. Hope all is well. O0

It feels darned good to be back! Long time no see y'all. :) :) :)


long time no see, Eazy. :)

It feels darned good to be back! Long time no see y'all. :) :) :)

Hey Eric  :)

I had another one of those weird dreams that don't mean anything.  Had that I'm gonna buy a diamond ring song in it.

I've had a mentally hectic life, mostly through no fault of my own. I feel that once I become stable later in the year, I feel I should build up a stable life for myself.

I've had a mentally hectic life


I know what that's like! I try to stay positive even in my darkest most hectic days. I'm lucky to have loving, caring people in my life that DO care about me, and it makes it that much easier. I hope you find your way, just stay positive!

So... my late grandparents' house in Palm Desert is finally cleared out (except for a few small items in the garage) and has officially been put on the market! The carpet has been replaced, and the walls have been repainted, so it looks like a new house! Today we drove out there to meet with the realestate agent and make a few payments. This will probably be the last time we go out there for a while... that is until we have a buyer. It'll be great to finally get it off our hands once and for all.


Today we found out that we might have a buyer for the Palm Desert house!! (Which is great because we can finally get it off our hands and don't have to drive out there anymore.)

I know what that's like! I try to stay positive even in my darkest most hectic days. I'm lucky to have loving, caring people in my life that DO care about me, and it makes it that much easier. I hope you find your way, just stay positive!


I do have some people who are warm and supportive of me, but the other half are ignorant of my issues. I'm ultimately responsible for my life, but it would be nice and easier to have people who don't have so many issues themselves to support me.

My life is getting more stable everyday, though.

And good luck to you, too!  8)  8)

Crazy friday  had two appointments, one being that place that's suppose to help me find some sort of job.

Today we found out that we might have a buyer for the Palm Desert house!! (Which is great because we can finally get it off our hands and don't have to drive out there anymore.)

That will be good if they buy it :)

I know what that's like! I try to stay positive even in my darkest most hectic days. I'm lucky to have loving, caring people in my life that DO care about me, and it makes it that much easier. I hope you find your way, just stay positive!


It's always good to stay positive.

I know what that's like! I try to stay positive even in my darkest most hectic days. I'm lucky to have loving, caring people in my life that DO care about me, and it makes it that much easier. I hope you find your way, just stay positive!

And that's certainly a good thing. :)

That will be good if they buy it :)

Yep, the 45-day escrow period began yesterday; so, hopefully by early April it can be off our hands once and for all.

Wanna take a virtual tour?

some shopping and Subway for a late lunch

Yep, the 45-day escrow period began yesterday; so, hopefully by early April it can be off our hands once and for all.

Wanna take a virtual tour?

Wow! The outside pics alone make me want it lol but it's a nice looking place.

Working... Uh no fun lol

Wow! The outside pics alone make me want it lol but it's a nice looking place.

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Do you have palm trees outside in your yard too?

oh hi, I've ended up with a 30.00 gift card so I'm looking around.  At first I didn't know what I might want.  Then-  lure him in a dance  lap a little blood  he's down tonight  he's down tonight.  I'm looking at makeup  and the bra.   

Working... Uh no fun lol



Is it a paying job? ???

Went to watch Nottingham Panthers play ice hockey this afternoon. They lost after playing some fairly mediocre hockey. A couple of fights broke out and one Panthers player was sent off for breaking an opponents nose. We couldn't tell if he head butted him or hit him with his stick.

We planned to go to Annie's Burger Shack afterwards, but there was a 45 minutes wait for food so we went to Anoki, an Indian restaurant instead. We had their Sunday special of five small starters each (like one baaji, one piece of spiced cod, etc) and then five different main dishes to share with rice and naans.

Do you have palm trees outside in your yard too?

Our yard? No. We live in a city near the ocean, so palm trees are not common in people's yards around here.

ordered, and will be getting a bra and some eye shadow.

ordered, and will be getting a bra and some eye shadow.


A movie??  ???

I got to watch out and keep from swallowing all my lip med color

A movie??  ???

Probably some personal items for her to use on herself.

My VCR needs a bra


I'm gonna need to get my hair cut sometime so I thought I might look and see if there's any styles I might.  I was wondering if I should think about trimming my eyebrows to look thinner.  There different ways to do that or does every lady just do the same thin lines? 

I'm currently drinking. Something I do rarely lol

Weird dream, I was a kid in a group with a bunch of kids and an adult and we were crossing a highway.  After we crossed, I heard some kind of music like a celebration or something.  Trumpets and stuff not guitars and the strange name, Firehouse 5.     

My VCR needs a bra


I'm gonna need to get my hair cut sometime so I thought I might look and see if there's any styles I might.  I was wondering if I should think about trimming my eyebrows to look thinner.  There different ways to do that or does every lady just do the same thin lines?


There are different ways to shape your eyebrows.  I rarely do mine, but when I do get them waxed I ask for them to be left fairly thick.  I don't like overly plucked eyebrows.

My dad is in hospital having an operation for a hernia.  He is in the theatre right now.

He has serious heart problems so the operation is quite risky because of the general anaesthetic

My VCR needs a bra


I'm gonna need to get my hair cut sometime so I thought I might look and see if there's any styles I might.  I was wondering if I should think about trimming my eyebrows to look thinner.  There different ways to do that or does every lady just do the same thin lines?


HUH?  ???

I'm currently drinking. Something I do rarely lol

Not something I ever care to do; just my personal preference that's all.

My dad is in hospital having an operation for a hernia.  He is in the theatre right now.

He has serious heart problems so the operation is quite risky because of the general anaesthetic


Keeping you in my thoughts, Karen.

February was wonderful for us, for we had visit for my son, daughter-in-law, and our granddaughter. They have now gone back home.

I came home tonight breathing hard.  Had doctors appointments today 

still breathing hard

I came home tonight breathing hard.  Had doctors appointments today


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I am your ? ...                    new pair of glasses.  These are the type they give people for driving