Having a lazy morning searching eBay for vintage glass lightfittings, gonna meet me friend at 13 o'clock to go for a walk to the beach, maybe go to the gym afterwards?  then come home and have a nice meal before an early bedtime (with Horlicks)  ::) for an early am start,
ooh I'm such a well disciplined girl, or should that be 'girl with no 'life'  to speak of?'

I have caught a lousy stinking cold from him at work who constantly stinks of cigerettes, that same bloke also had a cold while we up in Edinburgh  

>:(


Best thing is to try to stay away from that guy, if possible. I know I wouldn't wanna be around someone like that. :P

Nothing too exciting to report.

Hubby went grocery shopping by himself, without a list and still got nearly everything we needed to replace what went bad in the fridge!  I'm so proud.

I paid bills.  Hooray.  Got the usual dishes to do, may get back to packing boxes if I get my second wind.

My bee sting in my stomach from 4 days ago is itching like crazy, so it must be healing.  My kitten keeps scratching my fingers so they seem to be in a constant state of ouch.  ::)

Got a screw in my tire yesterday (Where's that Sir Billzy, I have a bone to pick with him!)  ;D  So we took it and got it patched.

Some people STILL don't have electricity, those poor souls!  I was so happy that I had electric back after 36 hours that I must have written 3 song parodies about getting my electricity back.  ;D 

Otherwise feeling a little blah, my sinuses are starting to fill up, I can just feel them now.  Maybe if I take some medicine I can catch it before it gets too bad.

Best thing is to try to stay away from that guy, if possible. I know I wouldn't wanna be around someone like that. :P


thing is Jeff our company ethos is to respect each other, be courteous etc etc plus we're on the same team so it's difficult, we have to be seen to be able to work with each other and behaving in a decent manner  ::) >:( ::)
If i mention his stinking breath i will probably be the one who gets spoken to!!   i bet others will have caught his cold by now as he was sneezing all over the place on Monday - without a hanky - then handling food..ughh

cheers tho, I'm just gonna try and work on another area when he's in and get a peg for me nose,

;D

I had a dream about the pair of you last night! You both turned up at a party I was holding.  ;D




I would LOVE for that dream to come true.


As for us, Carlos has another dentist appointment  :P this time to fill a cavity.  8-P 8-P 8-P  After he gets home, we are off to Subway to pick up sandwiches and then off to an auction. There is a roll top desk that I am in interested in (well, at least the photos look good-I will see how it looks up close and personal as to if I want to place a bid on it or not).



Cat

Some of you might have noticed that I have not been posting a great deal on here anymore.  It is not because I hate you or anything. :)

Last week, I pretty much had a series of panic attacks.  They started on Monday, and got to the point where I didn't want to do anything, see anyone, or even go outside.  I lost a total of 14 pounds in one week.  I was crying a lot, and I'm sure I scared Jason :\'(.  It culminated with me going to the ER on Saturday night because I could not handle it anymore.  I was in the ER for the better part of five hours, getting a psych evaluation and watching someone die (that's another story for another time).  I had to be babysat because I was considered a suicide risk.  I was released that night because even though I wasn't in the best frame of mind, I wasn't insane enough to be admitted.  The psychiatrist on duty at the time also gave me a list of mental health centers to call.

Monday I went to my regular doctor and told her everything that had gone on.  Let me just say that I absolutely ADORE my doctor.  She listened to me, hugged me, and then we discussed various options.  She didn't just push drugs on me.  She got me another list of more mental health centers, told me about the various drugs that were out there if *I* wanted to try them, and when I said yes to trying some, she recommended the best ones, explained the side effects, and gave me the smallest doses to start out.  She also recommended the Anxiety & Phobia Workbook.  I go to see her again in three weeks to see if the meds are helping and how I am doing.

So I am now on Paxil and Xanax.  The Xanax is only for when I feel a major panic attack coming on and the Paxil is something I have to take every day.  It is making me feel foggy, but I believe that is because I'm still not eating a lot and my body is adjusting to it all.

I'm slowly starting to get back into my regular routine again, but it is very difficult.  There may be times that I don't post on here or I go post crazy.  I am writing this because I've known a lot of you for a long time, and I know that you guys are there whenever anything bad happens, even if we have had disagreements in the past.  I also want it to be known that if you ever feel like this or feel depressed, PLEASE go to the doctor.  Don't hold it in.

And just...pray for me, keep me in your thoughts, whatever.  This is something I have never dealt with before, and at times I feel very scared.

Thank you.

Aw Jess  http://www.inthe00s.com/smile/11/3some.gif

I hope the meds start working properly soon.  I've heard that it can take a little while to get the medication/dosage right.

Please try and look after yourself and start eating properly.  If you can't face cooking (who can?) then look at something like those Ensure drinks to keep the vitamins, protein and calories coming in.

I hope you get better soon, Jessica.  I just had an anxiety attack some years ago and passed out just from that. So I can imagine yours!!! Luckily, I ended up in the hospital and am taking a low dose of medicine for it.

Just came back from the foot doctor and he said it looks like it's growing to be a healthy toenail,my last appointment will be in November.

Some of you might have noticed that I have not been posting a great deal on here anymore.  It is not because I hate you or anything. :)

Last week, I pretty much had a series of panic attacks.  They started on Monday, and got to the point where I didn't want to do anything, see anyone, or even go outside.  I lost a total of 14 pounds in one week.  I was crying a lot, and I'm sure I scared Jason :\'(.  It culminated with me going to the ER on Saturday night because I could not handle it anymore.  I was in the ER for the better part of five hours, getting a psych evaluation and watching someone die (that's another story for another time).  I had to be babysat because I was considered a suicide risk.  I was released that night because even though I wasn't in the best frame of mind, I wasn't insane enough to be admitted.  The psychiatrist on duty at the time also gave me a list of mental health centers to call.

Monday I went to my regular doctor and told her everything that had gone on.  Let me just say that I absolutely ADORE my doctor.  She listened to me, hugged me, and then we discussed various options.  She didn't just push drugs on me.  She got me another list of more mental health centers, told me about the various drugs that were out there if *I* wanted to try them, and when I said yes to trying some, she recommended the best ones, explained the side effects, and gave me the smallest doses to start out.  She also recommended the Anxiety & Phobia Workbook.  I go to see her again in three weeks to see if the meds are helping and how I am doing.

So I am now on Paxil and Xanax.  The Xanax is only for when I feel a major panic attack coming on and the Paxil is something I have to take every day.  It is making me feel foggy, but I believe that is because I'm still not eating a lot and my body is adjusting to it all.

I'm slowly starting to get back into my regular routine again, but it is very difficult.  There may be times that I don't post on here or I go post crazy.  I am writing this because I've known a lot of you for a long time, and I know that you guys are there whenever anything bad happens, even if we have had disagreements in the past.  I also want it to be known that if you ever feel like this or feel depressed, PLEASE go to the doctor.  Don't hold it in.

And just...pray for me, keep me in your thoughts, whatever.  This is something I have never dealt with before, and at times I feel very scared.

Thank you.


{{HUGS}}

You have my prayers, Jess.  :)

Some of you might have noticed that I have not been posting a great deal on here anymore.  It is not because I hate you or anything. :)

Last week, I pretty much had a series of panic attacks.  They started on Monday, and got to the point where I didn't want to do anything, see anyone, or even go outside.  I lost a total of 14 pounds in one week.  I was crying a lot, and I'm sure I scared Jason :\'(.  It culminated with me going to the ER on Saturday night because I could not handle it anymore.  I was in the ER for the better part of five hours, getting a psych evaluation and watching someone die (that's another story for another time).  I had to be babysat because I was considered a suicide risk.  I was released that night because even though I wasn't in the best frame of mind, I wasn't insane enough to be admitted.  The psychiatrist on duty at the time also gave me a list of mental health centers to call.

Monday I went to my regular doctor and told her everything that had gone on.  Let me just say that I absolutely ADORE my doctor.  She listened to me, hugged me, and then we discussed various options.  She didn't just push drugs on me.  She got me another list of more mental health centers, told me about the various drugs that were out there if *I* wanted to try them, and when I said yes to trying some, she recommended the best ones, explained the side effects, and gave me the smallest doses to start out.  She also recommended the Anxiety & Phobia Workbook.  I go to see her again in three weeks to see if the meds are helping and how I am doing.

So I am now on Paxil and Xanax.  The Xanax is only for when I feel a major panic attack coming on and the Paxil is something I have to take every day.  It is making me feel foggy, but I believe that is because I'm still not eating a lot and my body is adjusting to it all.

I'm slowly starting to get back into my regular routine again, but it is very difficult.  There may be times that I don't post on here or I go post crazy.  I am writing this because I've known a lot of you for a long time, and I know that you guys are there whenever anything bad happens, even if we have had disagreements in the past.  I also want it to be known that if you ever feel like this or feel depressed, PLEASE go to the doctor.  Don't hold it in.

And just...pray for me, keep me in your thoughts, whatever.  This is something I have never dealt with before, and at times I feel very scared.

Thank you.
you've got my attention and sympathy Jess. as a sufferer of Panic disorder/anxiety disease for many years (12), with a side order of depression. I can relate. I understand the trips to ER and weird thing is they never found any physical problem that was threatening, but the anxiety/panic can be crippling. It's been about 8 years since i suffered severe ones so I've made huge progress. I am not an expert, but I wouldn't take the paxil. I tried it and that stuff is weird and the side effects are bizzare. i would just stick to the xanax. but you should follow Dr.'s directions. one more thing and this may be hard, but you shouldn't be drinking alcohol while using these meds to overcome your situation. they kind of negate each other. good luck, you're in my prayers  8)

Some of you might have noticed that I have not been posting a great deal on here anymore.  It is not because I hate you or anything. :)

Last week, I pretty much had a series of panic attacks.  They started on Monday, and got to the point where I didn't want to do anything, see anyone, or even go outside.  I lost a total of 14 pounds in one week.  I was crying a lot, and I'm sure I scared Jason :\'(.  It culminated with me going to the ER on Saturday night because I could not handle it anymore.  I was in the ER for the better part of five hours, getting a psych evaluation and watching someone die (that's another story for another time).  I had to be babysat because I was considered a suicide risk.  I was released that night because even though I wasn't in the best frame of mind, I wasn't insane enough to be admitted.  The psychiatrist on duty at the time also gave me a list of mental health centers to call.

Monday I went to my regular doctor and told her everything that had gone on.  Let me just say that I absolutely ADORE my doctor.  She listened to me, hugged me, and then we discussed various options.  She didn't just push drugs on me.  She got me another list of more mental health centers, told me about the various drugs that were out there if *I* wanted to try them, and when I said yes to trying some, she recommended the best ones, explained the side effects, and gave me the smallest doses to start out.  She also recommended the Anxiety & Phobia Workbook.  I go to see her again in three weeks to see if the meds are helping and how I am doing.

So I am now on Paxil and Xanax.  The Xanax is only for when I feel a major panic attack coming on and the Paxil is something I have to take every day.  It is making me feel foggy, but I believe that is because I'm still not eating a lot and my body is adjusting to it all.

I'm slowly starting to get back into my regular routine again, but it is very difficult.  There may be times that I don't post on here or I go post crazy.  I am writing this because I've known a lot of you for a long time, and I know that you guys are there whenever anything bad happens, even if we have had disagreements in the past.  I also want it to be known that if you ever feel like this or feel depressed, PLEASE go to the doctor.  Don't hold it in.

And just...pray for me, keep me in your thoughts, whatever.  This is something I have never dealt with before, and at times I feel very scared.

Thank you.


Scary stuff...
I hope the drugs work for you. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Other than that...there's little I can do. I've handed you some karma anyway. ;)

Hugs to you Jess.  Know that you have friends here and elsewhere that love and support you and want to be there for ya in any way possible. 

you've got my attention and sympathy Jess. as a sufferer of Panic disorder/anxiety disease for many years (12), with a side order of depression. I can relate. I understand the trips to ER and weird thing is they never found any physical problem that was threatening, but the anxiety/panic can be crippling. It's been about 8 years since i suffered severe ones so I've made huge progress. I am not an expert, but I wouldn't take the paxil. I tried it and that stuff is weird and the side effects are bizzare. i would just stick to the xanax. but you should follow Dr.'s directions. one more thing and this may be hard, but you shouldn't be drinking alcohol while using these meds to overcome your situation. they kind of negate each other. good luck, you're in my prayers  8)
Me too. I went down the cognitive therapy route rather than drugs mainly because that was what I was offered at the time. It worked fantastically for me and I haven't had an attack for many, many years now. You know where I am if you need to talk.     

You are in my thoughts, Jessica. I hope you will get better soon. Please take care.  ;)

You guys have got me teary eyed....but in a good way!  Thank you everyone! :)

Mike, we're going to see how the Paxil and Xanax go.  Chances are it will probably be switched around when I go back on October 3rd.  I also gave up drinking a while ago, which is good since I'm not supposed to with these meds. :D  I have two small bottles of sake and a half bottle of Long Island ice tea in my refrigerator.  The former have been sitting in there for two weeks (hardly touched) and the latter has been in there for the better part of two months.  It just doesn't taste right to me anymore. :P

I'm going to try therapy as soon as I can locate and click with a good one.  Even my doctor said that that might take awhile because you don't always automatically hit it off with the first person you see.  She's a very wise woman.

thing is Jeff our company ethos is to respect each other, be courteous etc etc plus we're on the same team so it's difficult, we have to be seen to be able to work with each other and behaving in a decent manner  ::) >:( ::)
If i mention his stinking breath i will probably be the one who gets spoken to!!   i bet others will have caught his cold by now as he was sneezing all over the place on Monday - without a hanky - then handling food..ughh

cheers tho, I'm just gonna try and work on another area when he's in and get a peg for me nose,

;D

I understand. Of course I would respect him too, and be courteous and all that. Around such people I would just be the friendly person that I am.

Some of you might have noticed that I have not been posting a great deal on here anymore.  It is not because I hate you or anything. :)

Last week, I pretty much had a series of panic attacks.  They started on Monday, and got to the point where I didn't want to do anything, see anyone, or even go outside.  I lost a total of 14 pounds in one week.  I was crying a lot, and I'm sure I scared Jason :\'(.  It culminated with me going to the ER on Saturday night because I could not handle it anymore.  I was in the ER for the better part of five hours, getting a psych evaluation and watching someone die (that's another story for another time).  I had to be babysat because I was considered a suicide risk.  I was released that night because even though I wasn't in the best frame of mind, I wasn't insane enough to be admitted.  The psychiatrist on duty at the time also gave me a list of mental health centers to call.

Monday I went to my regular doctor and told her everything that had gone on.  Let me just say that I absolutely ADORE my doctor.  She listened to me, hugged me, and then we discussed various options.  She didn't just push drugs on me.  She got me another list of more mental health centers, told me about the various drugs that were out there if *I* wanted to try them, and when I said yes to trying some, she recommended the best ones, explained the side effects, and gave me the smallest doses to start out.  She also recommended the Anxiety & Phobia Workbook.  I go to see her again in three weeks to see if the meds are helping and how I am doing.

So I am now on Paxil and Xanax.  The Xanax is only for when I feel a major panic attack coming on and the Paxil is something I have to take every day.  It is making me feel foggy, but I believe that is because I'm still not eating a lot and my body is adjusting to it all.

I'm slowly starting to get back into my regular routine again, but it is very difficult.  There may be times that I don't post on here or I go post crazy.  I am writing this because I've known a lot of you for a long time, and I know that you guys are there whenever anything bad happens, even if we have had disagreements in the past.  I also want it to be known that if you ever feel like this or feel depressed, PLEASE go to the doctor.  Don't hold it in.

And just...pray for me, keep me in your thoughts, whatever.  This is something I have never dealt with before, and at times I feel very scared.

Thank you.


Wow...this seems like a pretty scary time for you, Jess. Sorry you had to feel so bad. You are in all our thoughts and prayers. :) I hope everything eventually works out.

Oh...and I have a big project for my online class that I need to get started on, so I'll probably be away from the 'puter for most of the day tomorrow (Thursday). So I'll see you when I see you!

Back at work after my day off and doing 8.20am - 7pm.  8-P 

Still coughing and feverish.

You guys have got me teary eyed....but in a good way!  Thank you everyone! :)

Mike, we're going to see how the Paxil and Xanax go.  Chances are it will probably be switched around when I go back on October 3rd.  I also gave up drinking a while ago, which is good since I'm not supposed to with these meds. :D  I have two small bottles of sake and a half bottle of Long Island ice tea in my refrigerator.  The former have been sitting in there for two weeks (hardly touched) and the latter has been in there for the better part of two months.  It just doesn't taste right to me anymore. :P

I'm going to try therapy as soon as I can locate and click with a good one.  Even my doctor said that that might take awhile because you don't always automatically hit it off with the first person you see.  She's a very wise woman.


Sounds like you're in good, caring hands, at least. I hope and pray that this is a temporary condition and, if not, that it is easily managed. I'm sure I'm not the only member here who feels helpless and frustrated for you...

Me too. I went down the cognitive therapy route rather than drugs mainly because that was what I was offered at the time. It worked fantastically for me and I haven't had an attack for many, many years now. You know where I am if you need to talk.     
I did that too. man, some of those people in my group were pretty messed up  :o  anyways, it looks like we survived and hopefully our friends here  at inthe00s will get on the road to wellness.


Oh...and I have a big project for my online class that I need to get started on, so I'll probably be away from the 'puter for most of the day tomorrow (Thursday). So I'll see you when I see you!
are you going after another degree Jeff?


Back at work after my day off and doing 8.20am - 7pm.  8-P 
wow, that's a long shift. while you're working hard for the money I'll be lazing on my sofa http://bestsmileys.com/lazy/1.gif 


Still coughing and feverish.
sorry it's going rough. more tea and some soup would be good. hang in there.

sorry it's going rough. more tea and some soup would be good. hang in there.
Soup now that is a good idea.

You guys have got me teary eyed....but in a good way!  Thank you everyone! :)

Mike, we're going to see how the Paxil and Xanax go.  Chances are it will probably be switched around when I go back on October 3rd.  I also gave up drinking a while ago, which is good since I'm not supposed to with these meds. :D  I have two small bottles of sake and a half bottle of Long Island ice tea in my refrigerator.  The former have been sitting in there for two weeks (hardly touched) and the latter has been in there for the better part of two months.  It just doesn't taste right to me anymore. :P

I'm going to try therapy as soon as I can locate and click with a good one.  Even my doctor said that that might take awhile because you don't always automatically hit it off with the first person you see.  She's a very wise woman.



Good Luck Jessica. :)

Soup now that is a good idea.
I hope there is Chicken Soup.

I hope there is Chicken Soup.


Or orange juice.

Or orange juice.
...and orange juice.

...and orange juice.


Plus,drink plenty of water.

Plus,drink plenty of water.
...and not cold water.

Today would have been my mum's 68th birthday.  My dad and my brothers are getting together today to scatter mum's ashes.  Dad is having a memorial made which he is hoping will be in place by Christmas.

are you going after another degree Jeff?

No Mike. This class is for my minor. I need to make up these units before I can officially get my degree.

Soup now that is a good idea.
yes, soup is good


I hope there is Chicken Soup.
I hear it's good for the soul


No Mike. This class is for my minor. I need to make up these units before I can officially get my degree.
well allrighty then. I thought you were already going for a Master's


Today would have been my mum's 68th birthday.  My dad and my brothers are getting together today to scatter mum's ashes.  Dad is having a memorial made which he is hoping will be in place by Christmas.


even though it may be sad, I hope it will be a peaceful time for you and the family as you do this together.

well allrighty then. I thought you were already going for a Master's

Oh no. I am not quite ready for one of those.

I'd even been mentioning this online class on other threads. It'll be finished in December, and then I'll finally be awarded my degree!!

I'm going nuts and am going to try to submit a little parody about me being nuts. 

I took no games yesterday and ninny took one back. I have an evil plan and I'm not telling.  http://www.inthe00s.com/smile/03/devilsmile.gif 

Gah!  I rushed around this morning buying my son his Wolf Cub uniform for the meeting tonight and I just got an e-mail postponing it till next week  >:(

Today would have been my mum's 68th birthday.  My dad and my brothers are getting together today to scatter mum's ashes.  Dad is having a memorial made which he is hoping will be in place by Christmas.




You are in my thoughts today.  :)

Today would have been my mum's 68th birthday.  My dad and my brothers are getting together today to scatter mum's ashes.  Dad is having a memorial made which he is hoping will be in place by Christmas.






You are in my thoughts today.  :)



Mine, too.



Cat

...mine, three. :)

I am feeling a bit...um...I'm not too sure. Last night after we got home from the auction (which we didn't get anything we went for but we did get several bargains-but that is an entirely different story), I checked our messages and there was one from a former friend asking us if she could use us as a reference on job applications.

It happened 5 years ago when I was still volunteering at the food shelf and she was the director. We were friends, got along great, worked great together, etc. etc. Then she started seeing this guy. This guy was not what I would refer to as a "good dude"-in fact, far from it. I did some digging on this guy and found out that he is a convicted sex offender. I confronted my friend with the information I found (I got his public records as proof). I was trying to protect my friend. She had a fit that I would do such a thing-like looking into my friend's well being?  ???  Anyway, apparently he had already told her about the conviction and it seems like the only thing he lied to her about was his age (I wonder). I think what really pissed me off was that she brought this guy to our wedding after I told her that I didn't want him there-and then she left the reception without even saying good-bye which, in my eyes is totally rude.

Then, a few weeks later, she calls me and asks if I consider us friends. I said yes and she said that she didn't-not after what I did. I was thinking it was because I got a copy of her his records. It wasn't until later that I found out what it was that I supposedly had done. He worked at a local restaurant that I ate at every week and I was very friendly with all the staff/owners. I found out that he quit his job but told her that he was fired because I told the management about his record. Instead of confronting me with this, she just assumed he was telling her the truth. The real kicker was the fact that she lost her job due to this idiot because he was constantly in the office with her. I made a comment about him always being there. She said something about me and Charlie doing things together. I looked around and said, "Do you see Charlie here?" Well, he got what he wanted, to distance her from me because I was talking sense to her.  She is still with this idiot and now they have a kid together.  ::)

I have run into her from time to time and she would hug me as if nothing happened. So now I'm in this dilemma, do I help her out or not? When it comes to work, I could say a lot of good things about her as well as a lot of not-so good things about her.

Of course the real issue here is that I am still hurt by what she did-and she never once apologized to me. Of course she may not realize that the idiot she is with lied to her about me. If I confront her with it, it may just bring up the issue of "him or me" that was settled 5 years ago (she picked him).



Cat

Wow.  I will never understand how people can behave that way then act as if nothing ever happened. 

Today would have been my mum's 68th birthday.  My dad and my brothers are getting together today to scatter mum's ashes.  Dad is having a memorial made which he is hoping will be in place by Christmas.




Hope you feel better Karen. :)

...and not cold water.


Well,it could be lukewarm water,something to soothe the throat.

You are in my thoughts today karen. 

Gah!  I rushed around this morning buying my son his Wolf Cub uniform for the meeting tonight and I just got an e-mail postponing it till next week  >:(


Guess it's time to relax.

Today would have been my mum's 68th birthday.  My dad and my brothers are getting together today to scatter mum's ashes.  Dad is having a memorial made which he is hoping will be in place by Christmas.




You're always in my thoughts.  :\'(

I am feeling a bit...um...I'm not too sure. Last night after we got home from the auction (which we didn't get anything we went for but we did get several bargains-but that is an entirely different story), I checked our messages and there was one from a former friend asking us if she could use us as a reference on job applications.

It happened 5 years ago when I was still volunteering at the food shelf and she was the director. We were friends, got along great, worked great together, etc. etc. Then she started seeing this guy. This guy was not what I would refer to as a "good dude"-in fact, far from it. I did some digging on this guy and found out that he is a convicted sex offender. I confronted my friend with the information I found (I got his public records as proof). I was trying to protect my friend. She had a fit that I would do such a thing-like looking into my friend's well being?  ???  Anyway, apparently he had already told her about the conviction and it seems like the only thing he lied to her about was his age (I wonder). I think what really pissed me off was that she brought this guy to our wedding after I told her that I didn't want him there-and then she left the reception without even saying good-bye which, in my eyes is totally rude.

Then, a few weeks later, she calls me and asks if I consider us friends. I said yes and she said that she didn't-not after what I did. I was thinking it was because I got a copy of her his records. It wasn't until later that I found out what it was that I supposedly had done. He worked at a local restaurant that I ate at every week and I was very friendly with all the staff/owners. I found out that he quit his job but told her that he was fired because I told the management about his record. Instead of confronting me with this, she just assumed he was telling her the truth. The real kicker was the fact that she lost her job due to this idiot because he was constantly in the office with her. I made a comment about him always being there. She said something about me and Charlie doing things together. I looked around and said, "Do you see Charlie here?" Well, he got what he wanted, to distance her from me because I was talking sense to her.  She is still with this idiot and now they have a kid together.  ::)

I have run into her from time to time and she would hug me as if nothing happened. So now I'm in this dilemma, do I help her out or not? When it comes to work, I could say a lot of good things about her as well as a lot of not-so good things about her.

Of course the real issue here is that I am still hurt by what she did-and she never once apologized to me. Of course she may not realize that the idiot she is with lied to her about me. If I confront her with it, it may just bring up the issue of "him or me" that was settled 5 years ago (she picked him).



Cat
so what are you gonna do Cat? here's my take/opinion on this matter of what you should do about her request to use you as a reference, since you asked  :)   If it were me, based on how she's been, things she's said, I'd have no problem declining being a reference and say to her that at one time you were fairly close friends but you've gone your seperate ways and maybe she should ask someone who she's more closely connected to at the present time.  or if you don't like that, just tell her that Carlos would rather you didn't  ;D  good luck 

I still slightly the same with the flu and woke up with a headache. Today I do have to go out and I am not looking forward to it!

so what are you gonna do Cat? here's my take/opinion on this matter of what you should do about her request to use you as a reference, since you asked  :)   If it were me, based on how she's been, things she's said, I'd have no problem declining being a reference and say to her that at one time we were fairly close friends but we've gone our seperate ways and maybe she should ask someone who she's more closely connected to at the present time.  or if you don't like that, just tell Carlos would rather you didn't  ;D  good luck 
I'll second this, you haven't worked with her for 5 years so surely someone more recent would be a better idea, for all you know her whole work ethic could have changed in that time.

Today would have been my mum's 68th birthday.  My dad and my brothers are getting together today to scatter mum's ashes.  Dad is having a memorial made which he is hoping will be in place by Christmas.


It was a beautiful autumnbly day over here weatherwise yesterday I hope it all went well.

It was a beautiful autumnbly day over here weatherwise yesterday I hope it all went well.
There is blue sky and the sun is shining.

I still slightly the same with the flu and woke up with a headache. Today I do have to go out and I am not looking forward to it!



Hope you feel better Phil,take good care of yourself. :)

It was a beautiful autumnbly day over here weatherwise yesterday I hope it all went well.


Yes it did thanks.  I rang my dad to speak to him about how it all went.  He said the weather was nice and bright.

My brothers and their wives were also there.  (I misunderstood the process I think  :-\\ and thought the ashes were scattered not put in a little casket to be buried.)  Anyway it turns out the plot is somewhere near where my grandma's (mum's mum) ashes are buried which my dad liked.  He put a birthday card in with the casket.  Someone from the funeral parlour was there to say prayers and read a poem or two.  This is the one my dad chose.

Death is nothing at all

Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
I am I and you are you,
whatever we were to each other, that we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name,
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone,
wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow,
laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Pray smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effort,
without the trace of a shadow in it.
Life means all that it ever meant,
it is the same as it ever was.
There is unbroken continuity,
why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you
somewhere very near
just around the corner.
All is well.


Henry Scott Holland 1847-1918
Canon of St Paul's Cathedral

^That is too beautiful.  I am going to copy that one 

I just spoke to a lady from Food Services about school meals.  Both my children said that the server was insisting they took a carton of milk every day.  Elizabeth never drinks milk so was taking a bottle of water because she was told she must take a drink.  I resented paying for something I was already giving her so I phoned.

Turns out that the town gets a 'refund' from the state for each meal they sell but the rules say it must include a drink.  If you don't buy a drink they don't get the money and so charge the meal differently.  It works out cheaper for me and the town food services if my daughter takes a carton of milk and throws it in the bin!  Isn't that crazy?!


I just booked a holiday for next April.  We got some deal through Hilton Rewards to stay in Orlando (near Seaworld) for $99 each per night.  All we have to do is sit through a presentation about timeshares (or whatever they call them now).

I just spoke to a lady from Food Services about school meals.  Both my children said that the server was insisting they took a carton of milk every day.  Elizabeth never drinks milk so was taking a bottle of water because she was told she must take a drink.  I resented paying for something I was already giving her so I phoned.

Turns out that the town gets a 'refund' from the state for each meal they sell but the rules say it must include a drink.  If you don't buy a drink they don't get the money and so charge the meal differently.  It works out cheaper for me and the town food services if my daughter takes a carton of milk and throws it in the bin!  Isn't that crazy?!


I just booked a holiday for next April.  We got some deal through Hilton Rewards to stay in Orlando (near Seaworld) for $99 each per night.  All we have to do is sit through a presentation about timeshares (or whatever they call them now).



Maybe your daughter can give the milk to someone else?


I know what you mean about sitting through a presentation about timeshares. We are going to do that this coming Monday. We get $50 in gas (and the place is only about 20 miles from here), $2000 worth of "stuff" from a website (probably a bunch of cheapo Chinese junk  ::) ) and a trip to Mystic Seaport. We did another one several years ago. We just go for the freebie stuff.  :D ;D ;D ;D



Cat

I still slightly the same with the flu and woke up with a headache. Today I do have to go out and I am not looking forward to it!

I felt similarly earlier this week, but thankfully no flu. Yesterday I had a runny nose but I feel a little better today. Not totally, though.

I felt similarly earlier this week, but thankfully no flu. Yesterday I had a runny nose but I feel a little better today. Not totally, though.


oh yuk, I just got a terribly runny nose and feel a bit feverish.  :(

Yes it did thanks.  I rang my dad to speak to him about how it all went.  He said the weather was nice and bright.

My brothers and their wives were also there.  (I misunderstood the process I think  :-\\ and thought the ashes were scattered not put in a little casket to be buried.)  Anyway it turns out the plot is somewhere near where my grandma's (mum's mum) ashes are buried which my dad liked.  He put a birthday card in with the casket.  Someone from the funeral parlour was there to say prayers and read a poem or two.  This is the one my dad chose.

Death is nothing at all

Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
I am I and you are you,
whatever we were to each other, that we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name,
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone,
wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow,
laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Pray smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effort,
without the trace of a shadow in it.
Life means all that it ever meant,
it is the same as it ever was.
There is unbroken continuity,
why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you
somewhere very near
just around the corner.
All is well.


Henry Scott Holland 1847-1918
Canon of St Paul's Cathedral


That is a beautiful poem Karen,Thank You. :)

Yes it did thanks.  I rang my dad to speak to him about how it all went.  He said the weather was nice and bright.

My brothers and their wives were also there.  (I misunderstood the process I think  :-\\ and thought the ashes were scattered not put in a little casket to be buried.)  Anyway it turns out the plot is somewhere near where my grandma's (mum's mum) ashes are buried which my dad liked.  He put a birthday card in with the casket.  Someone from the funeral parlour was there to say prayers and read a poem or two.  This is the one my dad chose.

Death is nothing at all

Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
I am I and you are you,
whatever we were to each other, that we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name,
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone,
wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow,
laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Pray smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effort,
without the trace of a shadow in it.
Life means all that it ever meant,
it is the same as it ever was.
There is unbroken continuity,
why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you
somewhere very near
just around the corner.
All is well.


Henry Scott Holland 1847-1918
Canon of St Paul's Cathedral


What a beautiful poem! Thank you so much for sharing it with us!  :)

Maybe your daughter can give the milk to someone else?


I know what you mean about sitting through a presentation about timeshares. We are going to do that this coming Monday. We get $50 in gas (and the place is only about 20 miles from here), $2000 worth of "stuff" from a website (probably a bunch of cheapo Chinese junk  ::) ) and a trip to Mystic Seaport. We did another one several years ago. We just go for the freebie stuff.  :D ;D ;D ;D



Cat



Let me know if you go to Mystic - we haven't been there yet. 

Man...take a couple days off!  ::)


Patty: I was totally thinking of you when I saw the hurricane was heading your way. Glad things are better now. Funny I have this visual of you sitting at the library computer while hubby was running all those errands.  ;D  Hey as long as you have your priorities straight sister!

BTW- paycheck after next I think I am totally investing in two of those back up batteries they sell at Costco. One for my TV and the other for my fridge....wait maybe 3 so I can put one on my computer  ;D

in the meantime I plan on charging my video ipod, my laptop and my portable dvd player. That would give me about 18hrs of entertainment.  ;D


Jess: Sorry to hear your news  :(  Hope the meds help. I'm pulling for you!


Karen: I know how much pain you feel and I feel for you. The poem your dad read was lovely tho.


Philip: Sorry you've been ill


Howie: Glad the toenail is growing back


Mike: Hope Julie's okay I didn't see the update but I had to go through a lot of posts.


Cat: That chick is crazy. The vengeful side of me says "Yeah be her reference  ;) Then totally screw her  ;D " on the other hand... is it really worth the energy? It almost seems like a good time to open that dialogue and ask the question "After the way we you left things- why on earth would you want to use me as a reference? A while back you said you don't consider me a friend." Maybe some the truths she hasn't heard will come to light and she will finally say those words you long to hear... you know "I'm sorry" or "you were right"


BTW is that Mystic CT?  Go have some pizza will for me will ya? and ask them if it's Goat Cheese  ;D

oh yuk, I just got a terribly runny nose and feel a bit feverish.  :(

Must be allergy season...who knows?

and again I forgot to talk about me!  ::)


I started cleaning my apt. Couldn't finish because I went into re-decorator mode and turned the damn thing upside down.

I had a brilliant plan to move some the furniture from bedroom to living room. Only- my living room TV is too big (its a 15 year old 31" Panasonic so that puppy is huge) and now it's sitting in the middle of the room because it didn't fit where I wanted it to.  

Now I've decided I want a 26" LCD to the tune of $450 (which I don't have) I'm wondering if I can make some money in a garage sale but that seems like a lot of work. And my landlady is a little weird. She's afraid people will come to the house and want to steal her 1980s decor.  ::)

I got B+ in both classes YAY ME! considering how hard I was killing myself I totally earned them...well almost totally.

I gave a talk today for the Community Service Officers of our department. Their all students, there were about 65 of them- most of home I didn't know. I sat through 2 other talks (to avoid work) and each speaker rec'd a smattering of applause but I got resounding applause so I think it went well. It probably helped that I played them some fun 911 audio...like the woman who wanted her hamburger enforced   ;D  and the other one (a spoof) about the guy getting bit in the neck by a deer. Still they laughed where I wanted them to. They asked lots of questions and they didn't seem bored by what I was saying.  Yay me again!

and again I forgot to talk about me!  ::)


I started cleaning my apt. Couldn't finish because I went into re-decorator mode and turned the damn thing upside down.

I had a brilliant plan to move some the furniture from bedroom to living room. Only- my living room TV is too big (its a 15 year old 31" Panasonic so that puppy is huge) and now it's sitting in the middle of the room because it didn't fit where I wanted it to. 

Now I've decided I want a 26" LCD to the tune of $450 (which I don't have) I'm wondering if I can make some money in a garage sale but that seems like a lot of work. And my landlady is a little weird. She's afraid people will come to the house and want to steal her 1980s decor.  ::)

I got B+ in both classes YAY ME! considering how hard I was killing myself I totally earned them...well almost totally.

I gave a talk today for the Community Service Officers of our department. Their all students, there were about 65 of them- most of home I didn't know. I sat through 2 other talks (to avoid work) and each speaker rec'd a smattering of applause but I got resounding applause so I think it went well. It probably helped that I played them some fun 911 audio...like the woman who wanted her hamburger enforced  ;D  and the other one (a spoof) about the guy getting bit in the neck by a deer. Still they laughed where I wanted them to. They asked lots of questions and they didn't seem bored by what I was saying.  Yay me again!






Congratulations! Well done!  8)


Must be allergy season...who knows?


I think so too....I've been sneezing more than usual lately.  :(

gosh I just don't know what I feel like any more.  I guess I don't really want to play in the game room.  I think I want to write and submit parodies, but not really.  If I really wanted Something done with my garden now or years ago I would have done it.  Come to think of it I've always been a person that never wanted anything.  Is that necessarily wrong or lazy or both?.  I only know what seems to be depressions from what my mom got me into.  I did take Celexa for a Chemical balance after my brain Tumor for a short time, but I think it has little if anything to do with me being dysfunctionally raised.  Anyway if you have any parody requests or anything like that I'll be happy to try and do it for you.  I think I was born to take pain and serve.    

Hey Everyone!!

I just thought I'd stop in and say HI!! 

I know I've been gone for a long time...for a while I wasn't myself...stress and stuff had me feeling down and I didn't feel like posting, but I'm feeling much better and I can't wait to catch up with everyone!!!

Hey Everyone!!

I just thought I'd stop in and say HI!! 

I know I've been gone for a long time...for a while I wasn't myself...stress and stuff had me feeling down and I didn't feel like posting, but I'm feeling much better and I can't wait to catch up with everyone!!!


We missed you!!! Welcome Back!!!

We missed you!!! Welcome Back!!!


Awwww, thanks!!!  I missed y'all too!!!  :)

Awwww, thanks!!!  I missed y'all too!!!   :)
she's not the only one that missed you Carol. glad to hear you're doing better.  welcome back  8)


gosh I just don't know what I feel like any more.  I guess I don't really want to play in the game room.  I think I want to write and submit parodies, but not really.  If I really wanted Something done with my garden now or years ago I would have done it.  Come to think of it I've always been a person that never wanted anything.  Is that necessarily wrong or lazy or both?.  I only know what seems to be depressions from what my mom got me into.  I did take Celexa for a Chemical balance after my brain Tumor for a short time, but I think it has little if anything to do with me being dysfunctionally raised.  Anyway if you have any parody requests or anything like that I'll be happy to try and do it for you.  I think I was born to take pain and serve.    
serving others is a gift Ann and it's kind of you to offer your time and efforts to us. I hope you get to feeling good, & balanced real soon.

Mike: Hope Julie's okay I didn't see the update but I had to go through a lot of posts.


thanks Tamarra. sadly, she's still sufffering with prolonged nausea and it breaks my heart to see her miserable  :(  she's seen her doctor a couple of times, had several blood tests done, and they all came back negative so it's a bit of a mystery. she had a better day today. the medication may be starting to work. I hope she gets better real soon. thanks for your concern.


you've been a busy woman yourself, redeco'ng the house and all the other things. and way to go on your grades. nice work. were you nervous when you got up to speak?  did anyone video the event?

...as for me, I'm going to have a sleep study done tomorrow night at the medical sleep center in Walnut Creek. I will be spending the night there so they can hook me up with electrodes and see if I have any form of sleep apnea or other sleep disorder. I'll come home Sunday morning so I won't be online tomorrow night.

and again I forgot to talk about me!  ::)


I started cleaning my apt. Couldn't finish because I went into re-decorator mode and turned the damn thing upside down.

I had a brilliant plan to move some the furniture from bedroom to living room. Only- my living room TV is too big (its a 15 year old 31" Panasonic so that puppy is huge) and now it's sitting in the middle of the room because it didn't fit where I wanted it to.  

Now I've decided I want a 26" LCD to the tune of $450 (which I don't have) I'm wondering if I can make some money in a garage sale but that seems like a lot of work. And my landlady is a little weird. She's afraid people will come to the house and want to steal her 1980s decor.  ::)

I got B+ in both classes YAY ME! considering how hard I was killing myself I totally earned them...well almost totally.

I gave a talk today for the Community Service Officers of our department. Their all students, there were about 65 of them- most of home I didn't know. I sat through 2 other talks (to avoid work) and each speaker rec'd a smattering of applause but I got resounding applause so I think it went well. It probably helped that I played them some fun 911 audio...like the woman who wanted her hamburger enforced   ;D  and the other one (a spoof) about the guy getting bit in the neck by a deer. Still they laughed where I wanted them to. They asked lots of questions and they didn't seem bored by what I was saying.  Yay me again!




Karma to boost your ego even further. ;) On the other thand: it's a well deserved karma.


gosh I just don't know what I feel like any more.  I guess I don't really want to play in the game room.  I think I want to write and submit parodies, but not really.  If I really wanted Something done with my garden now or years ago I would have done it.  Come to think of it I've always been a person that never wanted anything.  Is that necessarily wrong or lazy or both?.  I only know what seems to be depressions from what my mom got me into.  I did take Celexa for a Chemical balance after my brain Tumor for a short time, but I think it has little if anything to do with me being dysfunctionally raised.  Anyway if you have any parody requests or anything like that I'll be happy to try and do it for you.  I think I was born to take pain and serve.    



serving others is a gift Ann and it's kind of you to offer your time and efforts to us. I hope you get to feeling good, & balanced real soon.


I agree with Mike on the serving part, but taking pain.. Not good. No-one should take sheesh of any kind or in any form. You don't want to take pain, do you? ??? 'Cause that's just messed up.
Speaking of things you want (or don't want)... I don't think it's necessarily wrong or lazy to not want anything. On a good day, that makes you feel very unselfish, and on a bad day you just feel lazy or totally depressed. I've lived with that for nearly 42 years, and I'm still around. I'm not taking any drugs for it (though I probably could), and therapy has helped me cope with the depressive side.

Well, that wasn't very helpful, was it?  :-\\

serving others is a gift Ann and it's kind of you to offer your time and efforts to us. I hope you get to feeling good, & balanced real soon.


Serving is a gift.  I think it's going to be a while still before feeling good and ballenced.

I agree with Mike on the serving part, but taking pain.. Not good. No-one should take sheesh of any kind or in any form. You don't want to take pain, do you? ??? 'Cause that's just messed up.
Speaking of things you want (or don't want)... I don't think it's necessarily wrong or lazy to not want anything. On a good day, that makes you feel very unselfish, and on a bad day you just feel lazy or totally depressed. I've lived with that for nearly 42 years, and I'm still around. I'm not taking any drugs for it (though I probably could), and therapy has helped me cope with the depressive side.

Well, that wasn't very helpful, was it?  :-\\


There's not much you can do about taking sheesh since the day you were born.  The good thing is I can handle anything these days without it really bothering me.  The only time I feel like I'm lazy or wrong is when my mom gives me sheesh about it.  I only have my mothers negitive veiwpoint on everything. 

That was helpful

Sinusitis  :(  feel like my head is a balloon ready to pop.  Got laid off from work yesterday, called the agent and he may have something soon.  Think I'll hold off a week, get over this head, get a few things done, catch up with what goes on here.

Howie: Glad the toenail is growing back



Thank You,I've got one more session with the foot doctor then that's about it,this toenail took about a year to grow back.

Hey Everyone!!

I just thought I'd stop in and say HI!! 

I know I've been gone for a long time...for a while I wasn't myself...stress and stuff had me feeling down and I didn't feel like posting, but I'm feeling much better and I can't wait to catch up with everyone!!!


Hey Carol,nice to see you again. :)

Let me know if you go to Mystic - we haven't been there yet. 



Sure will. Maybe I can also talking "Dawg" into going to, she lives down that way.





Cat: That chick is crazy. The vengeful side of me says "Yeah be her reference  ;) Then totally screw her  ;D " on the other hand... is it really worth the energy? It almost seems like a good time to open that dialogue and ask the question "After the way we you left things- why on earth would you want to use me as a reference? A while back you said you don't consider me a friend." Maybe some the truths she hasn't heard will come to light and she will finally say those words you long to hear... you know "I'm sorry" or "you were right"


BTW is that Mystic CT?  Go have some pizza will for me will ya? and ask them if it's Goat Cheese  ;D



I haven't called her back. I still don't know what to say.  :-\\

Somehow, I don't quite associate Mystic with pizza.



Hey Everyone!!

I just thought I'd stop in and say HI!! 

I know I've been gone for a long time...for a while I wasn't myself...stress and stuff had me feeling down and I didn't feel like posting, but I'm feeling much better and I can't wait to catch up with everyone!!!



Welcome back. You have been missed around here.


For all of you who are not feeling well or have loved ones who aren't feeling well, I hope you all feel better soon.


As for me, my sister sent me a link to a nifty neat auction site-NO FEES!!!!  http://wensy.com  Check it out!

I figured what the hell so I am going to be listing items today. NO MORE GREEDBAY!!!!!  The kicker is, people are selling. So for all you who are looking for a "greedbay" alternative, this one is it.



Cat

AAAAUUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!



I am ready to take a sledgehammer to this *&^%$# computer.



Cat

Sure will. Maybe I can also talking "Dawg" into going to, she lives down that way.



It would be a cool 'meet up' location




Somehow, I don't quite associate Mystic with pizza.




Something to do with a film  :-\\  I could type out the blurb from the box.  I had Mystic Pizza for dinner last night.

AAAAUUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!



I am ready to take a sledgehammer to this *&^%$# computer.



Cat


Me too - to mine.  I was trying to reply to this post when everything went screwy.  >:(

http://www.inthe00s.com/smile/07/pcangry.gif

Hey Everyone!!

I just thought I'd stop in and say HI!! 

I know I've been gone for a long time...for a while I wasn't myself...stress and stuff had me feeling down and I didn't feel like posting, but I'm feeling much better and I can't wait to catch up with everyone!!!
HI!!!! I have missed you loads, I'm glad you are feeling better good luck with catching up with everything.  ;D

Maybe your daughter can give the milk to someone else?


I know what you mean about sitting through a presentation about timeshares. We are going to do that this coming Monday. We get $50 in gas (and the place is only about 20 miles from here), $2000 worth of "stuff" from a website (probably a bunch of cheapo Chinese junk  ::) ) and a trip to Mystic Seaport. We did another one several years ago. We just go for the freebie stuff.  :D ;D ;D ;D



Cat


I have been to Mystic Seaport and it was very interesting.  We went a bit off season so some of the exhibits were closed but it was still very good.  They had an Amistad exhibit as well, I know you will be happy to see that.  Mystic Pizza wasn't all that good, though.  Too wrapped up in themselves because of the movie, which I haven't seen, by the way.

Hey Everyone!!

I just thought I'd stop in and say HI!! 

I know I've been gone for a long time...for a while I wasn't myself...stress and stuff had me feeling down and I didn't feel like posting, but I'm feeling much better and I can't wait to catch up with everyone!!!


Carol!!! Nice to see you here again!! :) :-* 8) {{hugs}}} We sure have missed your company here.

Me too - to mine.  I was trying to reply to this post when everything went screwy.  >:(

http://www.inthe00s.com/smile/07/pcangry.gif

What, did the site have server problems again? ???

Somehow, I don't quite associate Mystic with pizza.



Cat





WHAT?!?!  :o Blasphemy!!! How dare you! Mystic Pizza is the best movie ever made (okay not really but it's still pretty darn good!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mSbrULyuyAw

Mike,

Thanks for the nice words. No I wasn't too nervous talking to them. I get nervous at parties where I don't know people but public speaking is easy for me.  Sorry my talk was not recorded. 

The Cubbies just clinched the National League Central division title so I am feeling pretty darn good!

The Cubbies just clinched the National League Central division title so I am feeling pretty darn good!


Yup.  We were watching it. :D

Yup.  We were watching it. :D


I figured as much! :D

I have been to Mystic Seaport and it was very interesting.  We went a bit off season so some of the exhibits were closed but it was still very good.  They had an Amistad exhibit as well, I know you will be happy to see that.  Mystic Pizza wasn't all that good, though.  Too wrapped up in themselves because of the movie, which I haven't seen, by the way.



I have been there, too but way back in the dark ages when I used to live in Conn. This will be my first time as an adult.




WHAT?!?!  :o Blasphemy!!! How dare you! Mystic Pizza is the best movie ever made (okay not really but it's still pretty darn good!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mSbrULyuyAw



I am ashamed to say, I have never seen the movie.  :-[

Maybe I should put it on our queue.



Cat

AAAAUUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!



I am ready to take a sledgehammer to this *&^%$# computer.



Cat



I hate when Winamp buffers. >:(

What, did the site have server problems again? ???


No, just my computer (well and Cat's computer)

Yes it did thanks.  I rang my dad to speak to him about how it all went.  He said the weather was nice and bright.

My brothers and their wives were also there.  (I misunderstood the process I think  :-\\ and thought the ashes were scattered not put in a little casket to be buried.)  Anyway it turns out the plot is somewhere near where my grandma's (mum's mum) ashes are buried which my dad liked.  He put a birthday card in with the casket.  Someone from the funeral parlour was there to say prayers and read a poem or two.  This is the one my dad chose.

Death is nothing at all

Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
I am I and you are you,
whatever we were to each other, that we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name,
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone,
wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow,
laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Pray smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effort,
without the trace of a shadow in it.
Life means all that it ever meant,
it is the same as it ever was.
There is unbroken continuity,
why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you
somewhere very near
just around the corner.
All is well.


Henry Scott Holland 1847-1918
Canon of St Paul's Cathedral


Karen......
My heart goes out to you Girl.
I copied the poem as well, going to use it in the shadowbox I bought for my Aunt's Ashes.

karma +1

I have been to Mystic Seaport and it was very interesting.  We went a bit off season so some of the exhibits were closed but it was still very good.  They had an Amistad exhibit as well, I know you will be happy to see that.  Mystic Pizza wasn't all that good, though.  Too wrapped up in themselves because of the movie, which I haven't seen, by the way.
I have a friend who lives there and she said much the same thing about Mystic Pizza.

I have seen the film but not for YEARS I remember enjoying it though...............

We have had the most beautiful weather this weekend after no sun for months it's bliss.
I was out in the garden most of yesterday and plan to do the same today. First I have to make an apple, cider and sultana cake. I spotted the recipe in one of my Mum's magazines so she is getting it back with a hole where I clipped it out!    ;D

I'm going to do a roast for dinner because I haven't cooked one for ages.

We have had the most beautiful weather this weekend after no sun for months it's bliss.
I was out in the garden most of yesterday and plan to do the same today. First I have to make an apple, cider and sultana cake. I spotted the recipe in one of my Mum's magazines so she is getting it back with a hole where I clipped it out!    ;D

I'm going to do a roast for dinner because I haven't cooked one for ages.


Oh yum...can I come over please?

We have had the most beautiful weather this weekend after no sun for months it's bliss.
I was out in the garden most of yesterday and plan to do the same today. First I have to make an apple, cider and sultana cake. I spotted the recipe in one of my Mum's magazines so she is getting it back with a hole where I clipped it out!    ;D

I'm going to do a roast for dinner because I haven't cooked one for ages.



I'm hungry. :)

Still feeling blah today, but looking forward to just sitting down in front of the television watching the Ryder Cup

It's a lovely day here today.  Dai is out at some mountain bike event, the children are watching Grease on DVD and I'm drinking a cup of tea whilst checking out the boards.  What could be better?

This afternoon we are planning to go to a 'farm day' at a local historical house.

I have been to Mystic Seaport and it was very interesting.  We went a bit off season so some of the exhibits were closed but it was still very good.  They had an Amistad exhibit as well, I know you will be happy to see that.  Mystic Pizza wasn't all that good, though.  Too wrapped up in themselves because of the movie, which I haven't seen, by the way.


Too bad the pizza isn't that good...doesn't affect me much because I don't eat pizza LUCKY ME HUH!

I feel pretty good so far.  I got to answer a question in my question ask me section.  You decide  I'll Shine- Sonic Flood
Also Dr. Music dose'nt seem to be upset seeing the past comments on banning him and knows that wasn't my intention to upset him.

Been trying to figure out what is wrong with this (*&^%$ computer. Uninstalled programs, reinstalled programs, ran the volume check, defrag, etc. etc. I finally figured it out. It is called VISTA!!! One program I have been trying to run wasn't exactly vista compatible. I discovered there were patches-downloaded them and what do you know, the program is working. Now, I have to figure out if there are patches to these other programs or if it is worth it just to buy a new program (they are card making programs and they were something $5 each). Now I just have to figure out why I can't send email. Tomorrow, I will have to place a call to Comcast. Since getting Comcast, we have placed I don't know how many calls to them-the first one was about half hour after the tech left after installing the bloody thing. So far, I'm not exactly impressed.



Cat

No, just my computer (well and Cat's computer)

Oh. Yes, I see Cat's posts re: computer problems as well.

Last weekend we had to temporarily connect ours because our router was having problems. But it's been fixed.

I just performed 19 songs at a concert - my first for nearly six months. One of the guys who was there is the boyfriend of one of my best female friends, and he's an awesome musician who I respect above almost all others - and he complimented me on my performances.

Makes me feel so much better about my music.

I just performed 19 songs at a concert - my first for nearly six months. One of the guys who was there is the boyfriend of one of my best female friends, and he's an awesome musician who I respect above almost all others - and he complimented me on my performances.

Makes me feel so much better about my music.


Yay you! and karma and suchlike. :) ;)


As for me: I've been out of town for the better part of two days (you did notice my absence, didn't you...? ::)). We've had a little outing with the company I work with because of its 75-year anniversary. Went to the isle of Texel and had a blast. I've spent more time on a bicycle than I've ever done in the past two or three years. ;D There were various activities and the group (colleagues and their partners, some 75 men in total) was split up at various occasions in various formations.  I've done some pretty silly games, and there was some controversy about the result of one of the games...but at least we (the group I was in) won on another occasion.
The weather was most excellent (sunny and dry - I got totally sunburnt), the food was available in abundance and of excellent quality, and the accommodations were splendid as well. So, in all - I'm looking forward to the 100-year anniversary! :)

Oh yeah, I was totally knackered when I got back home too. Spent the next six hours sleeping...

I just performed 19 songs at a concert - my first for nearly six months. One of the guys who was there is the boyfriend of one of my best female friends, and he's an awesome musician who I respect above almost all others - and he complimented me on my performances.

Makes me feel so much better about my music.


C O0 NGRATULATIONS!!!

I just performed 19 songs at a concert - my first for nearly six months. One of the guys who was there is the boyfriend of one of my best female friends, and he's an awesome musician who I respect above almost all others - and he complimented me on my performances.

Makes me feel so much better about my music.


So glad it went well!  Still wish I coulda heard it for myself, but see...you worrying for nothing!  Congratulations.  :)

We've had a little outing with the company I work with because of its 75-year anniversary.


Sounds like alot of fun!  Glad you had a wonderful time.  :)

I just performed 19 songs at a concert - my first for nearly six months. One of the guys who was there is the boyfriend of one of my best female friends, and he's an awesome musician who I respect above almost all others - and he complimented me on my performances.

Makes me feel so much better about my music.



Yay!!!!



Yay you! and karma and suchlike. :) ;)


As for me: I've been out of town for the better part of two days (you did notice my absence, didn't you...? ::)). We've had a little outing with the company I work with because of its 75-year anniversary. Went to the isle of Texel and had a blast. I've spent more time on a bicycle than I've ever done in the past two or three years. ;D There were various activities and the group (colleagues and their partners, some 75 men in total) was split up at various occasions in various formations.  I've done some pretty silly games, and there was some controversy about the result of one of the games...but at least we (the group I was in) won on another occasion.
The weather was most excellent (sunny and dry - I got totally sunburnt), the food was available in abundance and of excellent quality, and the accommodations were splendid as well. So, in all - I'm looking forward to the 100-year anniversary! :)

Oh yeah, I was totally knackered when I got back home too. Spent the next six hours sleeping...



Of course I noticed your absence. This place just isn't the same without you. Sounds like a great time.




Cat

I just performed 19 songs at a concert - my first for nearly six months. One of the guys who was there is the boyfriend of one of my best female friends, and he's an awesome musician who I respect above almost all others - and he complimented me on my performances.

Makes me feel so much better about my music.



What instrument did you play?

Went to a Civil War Re-enactment.  When I started asking questions of some of the "re-enactors" it became clear that I knew as much about it as they did, if not more.  On top of that, how can you claim to be a re-enactor if you are drinking Coca Cola and eating Doritos, and Grant was sitting with his wife offering tea and cake!  ::)

Went to a Civil War Re-enactment.  When I started asking questions of some of the "re-enactors" it became clear that I knew as much about it as they did, if not more.  On top of that, how can you claim to be a re-enactor if you are drinking Coca Cola and eating Doritos, and Grant was sitting with his wife offering tea and cake!  ::)


It proves they don't nothing about history!  ::)

Read a sad story in this morning's paper. It seems that the president of the college's wife (and a former teacher of mine) is diagnosed with Alzheimers. It is so sad because she is young (58). They are our host/hostess for the Christmas party we got to every year.




Cat

Read a sad story in this morning's paper. It seems that the president of the college's wife (and a former teacher of mine) is diagnosed with Alzheimers. It is so sad because she is young (58). They are our host/hostess for the Christmas party we got to every year.




Cat


Oh wow. That's too bad. Alzheimer's is one scary disease. I joke that I'm going to have it one day but 58  :o that's too young!

Read a sad story in this morning's paper. It seems that the president of the college's wife (and a former teacher of mine) is diagnosed with Alzheimers. It is so sad because she is young (58). They are our host/hostess for the Christmas party we got to every year.




Cat


My mom was 59 when she was diagnosed with it too.

My mom was 59 when she was diagnosed with it too.


sorry to hear that.  something I've always wondered. If you don't mind my asking.

In the beginning stages, as I understand it, there are moments where the person actually has lucid moments but are they aware of what going on or what happened when they weren't lucid before? or am I just wrong about the lucidity in the beginning?

Oh wow. That's too bad. Alzheimer's is one scary disease. I joke that I'm going to have it one day but 58  :o that's too young!





Yeah it is.



My mom was 59 when she was diagnosed with it too.



I am so sorry to hear that.


The thing is about this woman, I can't say we are friends-just someone I know.

If anyone is interested in the reading the article.

http://www.rutlandherald.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20080921/NEWS/809190291

There were a couple of photos but I guess they don't have them on the website.



Cat

I just performed 19 songs at a concert - my first for nearly six months. One of the guys who was there is the boyfriend of one of my best female friends, and he's an awesome musician who I respect above almost all others - and he complimented me on my performances.

Makes me feel so much better about my music.


Way to go! Congrats to you!  8)


Read a sad story in this morning's paper. It seems that the president of the college's wife (and a former teacher of mine) is diagnosed with Alzheimers. It is so sad because she is young (58). They are our host/hostess for the Christmas party we got to every year.




Cat


My mom was 59 when she was diagnosed with it too.


Wow, that's awful! I'm so sorry! So young to have such a horrible disease.  :\'(

Wow, that's awful! I'm so sorry! So young to have such a horrible disease.  :\'(

It sure is! :-[ I've been reading about this too.


As for me, I think I'm feeling better than I did a day or two ago.

Read a sad story in this morning's paper. It seems that the president of the college's wife (and a former teacher of mine) is diagnosed with Alzheimers. It is so sad because she is young (58). They are our host/hostess for the Christmas party we got to every year.




Cat


The mother of a friend of mine was diagnosed with it at that age.  It was very sad, she was the nicest person.  They also told my friend that she she should be checked periodically because it was early onset ran in the family.  :(

sorry to hear that.  something I've always wondered. If you don't mind my asking.

In the beginning stages, as I understand it, there are moments where the person actually has lucid moments but are they aware of what going on or what happened when they weren't lucid before? or am I just wrong about the lucidity in the beginning?




Well, I'm by no means even very fluent in the disease, mom has been on medicine for about a year, but was only "officially" diagnosed this past May.  I'm not a big fan of her doctor because he's done other things that, at the least, has not been very communicative.  He diagnosed her with diabetes and put her on pills.  She was on them for awhile, but had some intestinal side-effects, so he took her off of them but didn't put her on anything else.  Just because one pill doesn't work, there are others!  grrrrrrr.  She asked if he would prescribe testing strips for her so that her insurance would pay for it, but the doctor told her "You don't need to test your blood sugar."  ::)  But then, my mom gets confused or forgets things so who knows what the doctor actually did or said.  She doesn't always tell me everything, unfortunately.

Mom is still pretty normal, mental-wise.  Mom still is working, she is a maid for a big health clinic.  It's part-time in the evenings, and she tells me stories about her forgetting where she put her purse or temporarily losing the key to the office at work.  When she tells me stories, she sometimes forgets names or details.

It's kind of heartbreaking actually.  I'm not really sure I have the strength for this, because she is really going to need alot of support in the coming years.  That is also pretty much why I wanted to get this house, because she said she wouldn't object to moving in with us when the time came.  My dad and brother aren't going to want or be able to take care of her.  Dad and she have fought for nearly all my life, and I think they are together for convenience sake.  My brother has his own issues, has never lived away from home (and he's 35) and is barely enough to be able to take care of himself (even though he has held the same job at the grocery store for 20 years.)  I already know that when my parents die, they keep telling me that I will have to help my brother in life too. 

My hubby has been awesome about this.  He is trying to be supportive of me while I try to sort everything out and make plans for the future (which has never been my strong point.)  I've always been one to deal with things every day as they come along. 

Sorry, didn't mean for this to turn into a novel, but just have a bit of an emotional night tonight. 

A suggestion I would make would be to start looking now for a good nursing home that is close by.  If you wait until you need one you may have to take whatever is available and some of them are just awful.  Find out how long the waiting list is, although unpredictable they can give a rough estimate.  Also have as much as possible taken out of her name while she is still competent.  The state takes just about everything when she is declared.  Their are some decent websites for nursing homes, but site visits mean a lot more. It's hard, but don't let it wait.

Yes it did thanks.  I rang my dad to speak to him about how it all went.  He said the weather was nice and bright.

My brothers and their wives were also there.  (I misunderstood the process I think  :-\\ and thought the ashes were scattered not put in a little casket to be buried.)  Anyway it turns out the plot is somewhere near where my grandma's (mum's mum) ashes are buried which my dad liked.  He put a birthday card in with the casket.  Someone from the funeral parlour was there to say prayers and read a poem or two.  This is the one my dad chose.

Death is nothing at all

Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
I am I and you are you,
whatever we were to each other, that we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name,
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone,
wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow,
laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Pray smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effort,
without the trace of a shadow in it.
Life means all that it ever meant,
it is the same as it ever was.
There is unbroken continuity,
why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you
somewhere very near
just around the corner.
All is well.


Henry Scott Holland 1847-1918
Canon of St Paul's Cathedral


This is such an awesome post, that I stole the poem and created a myspace layout with it. I am using it in honor of my late Aunt Annie. Today is her 60th birthday. :\'(