I'm not so sure if I fit in here anymore.

I get that way sometimes.  Sometimes I feel like deleting my account and just saying "Awww Screw it!!!".

I get that way sometimes.  Sometimes I feel like deleting my account and just saying "Awww Screw it!!!".


I know what you mean, girl. ;) :)

Thank you, I feel a little better. Karma+1

I get that way sometimes.  Sometimes I feel like deleting my account and just saying "Awww Screw it!!!".



Yeah, but we're glad you didn't delete.  :)

Yeah, but we're glad you didn't delete.  :)


Thank you! :)

I get that way sometimes.  Sometimes I feel like deleting my account and just saying "Awww Screw it!!!".



don't you dare...you are a very cool person! :)

I think about it sometimes (about leaving), as I know I'd probably not feel so addicted. But then, It would probably give me more time to play on myspace.com, and that is a much more deadlier place to be. At least I "learn" stuff here  ;D

I really enjoy being apart of this community...I've made so many good friends here, it's like a neat little support system. I wouldn't say that I am addicted...but I like making it a part of my daily schedule.

I really enjoy being apart of this community...I've made so many good friends here, it's like a neat little support system. I wouldn't say that I am addicted...but I like making it a part of my daily schedule.



Completely agree. 

I really enjoy being apart of this community...I've made so many good friends here, it's like a neat little support system. I wouldn't say that I am addicted...but I like making it a part of my daily schedule.


Yes, addiction may have been the case when I first started. Now, I am not on here quite as much and I just mainly enjoy seeing other's point of view on here from day to day.

It's like anything else you do.  You have the good and the bad.  But hey, that's life. :)

that's life. :)


Yeah i know, more bad then good..

It's like anything else you do.  You have the good and the bad.  But hey, that's life. :)


Exactly.  :)

Things tend to always be more bad than good for me. Its like I have bad luck or something.

I hate everything right now, mang.

Sometimes I think I'd have been better off if I was never born at all..

i'm no doctor, but if i had to guess i'd say you're suffering from clinical depression.

imminently treatable, i had it when i was around your age.

Sometimes I think I'd have been better off if I was never born at all..


NOW STOP THAT!!!  If you weren't here we would be "Dudeless".  Which is a horrible thing to be! :(

I hate everything right now, mang.


What do you hate?

What do you hate?
I believe it's called throwing the toys out of the pram..................

Treatable? I don't want dope, I already have that.  I'm not trying to be argumentative, but my experience with psychiatry has been they do nothing but medicate, and I just have no interest in that.


I believe it's called throwing the toys out of the pram..................


Whats a pram?

I believe it's called throwing the toys out of the pram..................


I thought so, but, what is the root of the problem? Is it hopelessness?

Treatable? I don't want dope, I already have that.  I'm not trying to be argumentative, but my experience with psychiatry has been they do nothing but medicate, and I just have no interest in that.

Whats a pram?


A Baby carriage

NOW STOP THAT!!!  If you weren't here we would be "Dudeless".  Which is a horrible thing to be! :(


Hm, maybe you're right.


What do you hate?


The world, just..everything. Its all been the same tired B.S ever since I was a kid.

I don't get the toys/carriage reference.

I thought so, but, what is the root of the problem? Is it hopelessness?


Methinks that's part of it...the other part seems to be a general unwillingness to improve oneself.

Hm, maybe you're right.

The world, just..everything. Its all been the same tired B.S ever since I was a kid.

I don't get the toys/carriage reference.


The world is what it is... there's just a time where you have to throw your arms up in the air and say, "Screw the world, I'm going to do my best and live by my convictions, and if a few people don't like me for that - I can't help that."

I went through this too.  Medicating isn't going to help.  I think what you need is someone who you can talk about ANYTHING to.  The worst thing is probably not fitting in.  God, I hated being a teen.

Treatable? I don't want dope, I already have that.  I'm not trying to be argumentative, but my experience with psychiatry has been they do nothing but medicate, and I just have no interest in that.





I understand about not wanting meds. Maybe you need to find someone who is not quick to write out a perscription. You might also try to find something that interests you-some kind of hobby, involvement, etc. etc.




Cat

Methinks that's part of it...the other part seems to be a general unwillingness to improve oneself.


My problems are deeper than just improving oneself. I've lost 50 pounds the last year, and that hasn't really changed anything.


The world is what it is... there's just a time where you have to throw your arms up in the air and say, "Screw the world, I'm going to do my best and live by my convictions, and if a few people don't like me for that - I can't help that."


Well, I've done that several times and I always end up unhappy again anyway, and right back where I started from.


I went through this too.  Medicating isn't going to help.  I think what you need is someone who you can talk about ANYTHING to.  The worst thing is probably not fitting in.  God, I hated being a teen.


This isn't some high school "nodoby likes me" thing, hell, I'm not even in high school. I don't know anybody under 29 in real life at this moment(I said 29 because thats my older brother's age- he is the youngest person I know currently).

i was actually never medicated, and i do think this culture tends to over-medicate -- but if it's that depression that just causes the fog of hopelessness temporary meds can really help just to dispel the cobwebs.

i stopped drinking and toking so much, tried to find areas of focus for life improvement, and after a few months things just started to get better. dunno if it was the measures i took or if it was just passing through adolescence.

I understand about not wanting meds. Maybe you need to find someone who is not quick to write out a perscription. You might also try to find something that interests you-some kind of hobby, involvement, etc. etc.




Cat


Yeah, you're probably right about that. I could use a hobby, finding one I like and can do has been very difficult for me.


i was actually never medicated, and i do think this culture tends to over-medicate -- but if it's that depression that just causes the fog of hopelessness temporary meds can really help just to dispel the cobwebs.

i stopped drinking and toking so much, tried to find areas of focus for life improvement, and after a few months things just started to get better. dunno if it was the measures i took or if it was just passing through adolescence.


Yeah, I hope that my hormones changing back to a normal state will help me feel at least a little better. I'm almost 19 now, so adolesence should be ending for me biologically within the next year or two, shouldn't it?

Ok seriously, from what I have seen of you on these boards I think you could use some anger management. You seem to have an awful lot of anger and agression and I really think it is eating you up. I actually find it disturbing on occassions.You need to find some way to let it go/work it out. I personally think if you can do that the rest will follow.

i was actually never medicated, and i do think this culture tends to over-medicate -- but if it's that depression that just causes the fog of hopelessness temporary meds can really help just to dispel the cobwebs.

i stopped drinking and toking so much, tried to find areas of focus for life improvement, and after a few months things just started to get better. dunno if it was the measures i took or if it was just passing through adolescence.
Absolutely! Quit the smoke if you can I found that made a major difference to me.

Absolutely! Quit the smoke if you can I found that made a major difference to me.
it used to make me very fearful, that stuff. course, um, that was then...

The smoke doesn't bring me down.

I don't think it keeps me from doing anything either. Hell, I LIKE to work out when I'm stoned.

Ok seriously, from what I have seen of you on these boards I think you could use some anger management. You seem to have an awful lot of anger and agression and I really think it is eating you up. I actually find it disturbing on occassions.You need to find some way to let it go/work it out. I personally think if you can do that the rest will follow.


Yeah.. well a lot of it is leftover from the years during my childhood and adolesence, I was not treated kindly. In high school I got picked on quite a bit, and I always wanted to confront my tormentors but I was never able to because I was too physically afraid of them. I have the fighting skills of a girl, and to top it off I'm a pretty small guy, at 5'7". So its like I had this anger against them I couldn't really do anything about since they could kick my ass. I used to fantasize about carrying a blackjack with me and using that on them, but it was never something I could actually do b/c with the way schools are I'd of been locked up because of zero-tolerance policies on weapons. Yet when my ass was kicked by them, they only got in normal trouble(i.e. just with the school, not the law) because they could do it without a weapon, I could not.

Yeah, you're probably right about that. I could use a hobby, finding one I like and can do has been very difficult for me.

Yeah, I hope that my hormones changing back to a normal state will help me feel at least a little better. I'm almost 19 now, so adolesence should be ending for me biologically within the next year or two, shouldn't it?


Well, even though you're 19, I didn't see myself change all that much up until at least last year.

I have the fighting skills of a girl, and to top it off I'm a pretty small guy, at 5'7".
lifting for mass might do you a world of good. i took up weightlifting about ten years ago after it didn't really matter any more and i wish to god i'd done it back in junior high through college when i was the same way -- i was real small and afraid of fighting and if i'd known i had some strength i would have carried myself differently and probably not been messed with as much. 99 times out of a hundred you don't even NEED to fight if you carry yourself like you'd take a chunk out of someone who bothered you, but if you're visibly down on yourself, nervous, and physically feeble, like i was back in those days, people can't resist messin' with ya. i just thought i was cursed with being weak but it turns out you can work on that and improve it.

lifting for mass might do you a world of good. i took up weightlifting about ten years ago after it didn't really matter any more and i wish to god i'd done it back in junior high through college when i was the same way -- i was real small and afraid of fighting and if i'd known i had some strength i would have carried myself differently and probably not been messed with as much. 99 times out of a hundred you don't even NEED to fight if you carry yourself like you'd take a chunk out of someone who bothered you, but if you're visibly down on yourself, nervous, and physically feeble, like i was back in those days, people can't resist messin' with ya. i just thought i was cursed with being weak but it turns out you can work on that and improve it.


Interesting. Weightlifting like that might be something I'll take up one day.

Plus if I get all buff maybe women will notice me. I'm too shy too approach them myself, but maybe if I'm hot I won't need to anymore.

I mean, I do think I have the potential to be seriously hot.

I've got beautiful blue eyes with long lashes, dark eyebrows, pretty good facial structure/cheek bones, i have full pinkish lips(kind of Elvis looking actually)..my chin is a little weak BUT I have the dimple thing going on there(kinda like Ben Affleck, but not as noticeable as his) which some women think is cute..

Plus with long, sexy hair(and I do have nice, thick hair with lots of body) and a nice bod, I'd be pretty damn good looking.

Oh, and I have the secret weapon of course.  ;)

Feel like I'm talking to myself. ;D

I'm not so sure if I fit in here anymore.


If I might make a suggestion in total seriousness, the inflammatory posts certainly don't help.. I took an anti-weed approach to something awhile back, and your response was "I knew I didn't like you". Now, call me crazy, but those aren't the words of someone trying to fit in.. unless, of course, you're trying to start a weed clique.

Although I see what you're saying, this place is going downhill.

Actually, you're not.  I had to put some laundry in the dryer.  But I'm still here. :)

If I might make a suggestion in total seriousness, the inflammatory posts certainly don't help.. I took an anti-weed approach to something awhile back, and your response was "I knew I didn't like you". Now, call me crazy, but those aren't the words of someone trying to fit in.. unless, of course, you're trying to start a weed clique.



"Anti weed approach" ::) It went deeper than that and you know it. You said you support the law, therefore you support sending people to jail over it. I'm not gonna rip on you for being anti-weed personally, Beth is anti-weed and I don't actively rip on her for it.

"Anti weed approach" ::) It went deeper than that and you know it. You said you support the law, therefore you support sending people to jail over it. I'm not gonna rip on you for being anti-weed personally, Beth is anti-weed and I don't actively rip on her for it.


I said I support the law.. I'd like to know at what point I said I advocated jailing people for the use of drugs in their private residences. I said that people shouldn't use the drug because it's against the law.. I didn't mention anything about incarceration, I didn't say anything about punishment, I said people should respect the law. Again, call me crazy if I'm going out on a limb here, but that sort of statement shouldn't cause such a divide.

If you'd like to elaborate how it went "deeper" than that, please, I really don't know what you're getting at.

I said I support the law.. I'd like to know at what point I said I advocated jailing people for the use of drugs in their private residences. I said that people shouldn't use the drug because it's against the law.. I didn't mention anything about incarceration, I didn't say anything about punishment, I said people should respect the law. Again, call me crazy if I'm going out on a limb here, but that sort of statement shouldn't cause such a divide.


Well, Andrew and I assumed thats what you meant. Sorry for the misunderstanding.

I think I'll just leave you two to this discussion.
I'll be around if you need, okay.

Well, Andrew and I assumed thats what you meant. Sorry for the misunderstanding.


Ah, it's alright. Just clarify next time before you get all "AAAHHH!!!", eh? :D

Ah, it's alright. Just clarify next time before you get all "AAAHHH!!!", eh? :D


Yeah, guess I need to change my MSN screen name now. ^_^  XD

On an unrelated note.. is the "NEW" button not working for you anymore? Cause mine's not showing up anymore for the new posts.

Nah eets working for me, mang.

On an unrelated note, what does everyone think of the terminology "rude ass tittahs"? ;D

On an unrelated note, what does everyone think of the terminology "rude ass tittahs"? ;D


I like the accent on the last word there.. it looks like it should be followed up with a good 'ah ah ah ah ah' laugh.

I like the accent on the last word there.. it looks like it should be followed up with a good 'ah ah ah ah ah' laugh.


Its this thing I came up with of replacing the lasy syllables of nouns with the suffix "-ah", 'ala Cartman from South Park when he says "authoritah".

Hence words such as kittah, puppah, tittah etc.

And you see "rude" in reference to cleavage means thats its very "out there" and visible..as well as supple.

Or like in my sig you can refer to them as "impolite".

I've got beautiful blue eyes with long lashes, dark eyebrows, pretty good facial structure/cheek bones, i have full pinkish lips(kind of Elvis looking actually)..my chin is a little weak BUT I have the dimple thing going on there(kinda like Ben Affleck, but not as noticeable as his) which some women think is cute..

Plus with long, sexy hair(and I do have nice, thick hair with lots of body) and a nice bod, I'd be pretty damn good looking.

Oh, and I have the secret weapon of course.  ;)
http://youtube.com/watch?v=6vw7NAkjvvU

http://youtube.com/watch?v=6vw7NAkjvvU



Frinkily uncanny.

Frinkily uncanny.


Huh? What is it? I have dial-up, I can't watch that.

Huh? What is it? I have dial-up, I can't watch that.
the most unbelievably dreamy footage of david gilmour you can possibly imagine. *I* pretty much fell in love at first sight. ;D

rick wright tries to keep up at the end but fails.

the most unbelievably dreamy footage of david gilmour you can possibly imagine. *I* pretty much fell in love at first sight. ;D


Tia now sits seething with jealously.

:P I don't think this is a place where you really "fit in". It's a place where you leave comments and watch other people leave comments.

Tia now sits seething with jealously.


Why?

I'm lost as to what David Gilmour has to do with me.

Tia now sits seething with jealously.
now, now, tia. you're pretty too.

I love this place like family,We all have our ups and downs but for me I don't want a certain situation to get out of hand If you know what I mean.

Why?

I'm lost as to what David Gilmour has to do with me.



Nevermind.

Maybe It's time to move on from here?  ??? :(

Maybe It's time to move on from here?  ??? :(



No Howard.....we don't want you to leave.  :)

No Howard.....we don't want you to leave.  :)


I think he was suggesting Alex leave?

No Howard.....we don't want you to leave.  :)


I know I just get overexcited,That's all.No hard feelings  :)

I think he was suggesting Alex leave?



Oh, I thought he was referring to himself.

Oh, I thought he was referring to himself.



In A Way I was for the evening.

I get that way sometimes.  Sometimes I feel like deleting my account and just saying "Awww Screw it!!!".


That's what I did back in July, but in 2 days I came back cause I just couldn't stay away lol.

72 posts in one day?  I hope it wasn't all cruel  ;D, seriously when I saw this thread, I thought Oh Boy, here we go. the door is open. So today was quite a rollercaoster ride, the feelings going up and down and yet it's just another day in the life.  don't let it get you down.  8)

I like it at different times.  I like it now, when few members are around and i can reply to posts without interruption.  I also like when there is banter going like rifle fire...
this is nice right now.

That's what I did back in July, but in 2 days I came back cause I just couldn't stay away lol.


Donnie Darko once had a hiatus that lasted 45 minutes. ;D

Donnie Darko once had a hiatus that lasted 45 minutes. ;D


;D

72 posts in one day?  I hope it wasn't all cruel  ;D, seriously when I saw this thread, I thought Oh Boy, here we go. the door is open. So today was quite a rollercaoster ride, the feelings going up and down and yet it's just another day in the life.  don't let it get you down.  8)
i keep waiting for that "where's the debate" thread mushroom started to get heated up and rolling. that's gonna be a mosh pit!

I still like this place.

I get that way sometimes.  Sometimes I feel like deleting my account and just saying "Awww Screw it!!!".



If the original poster hasn't seen "The Big Lebowski", he owes it to himself to see it.  But in honor of the original poster's nickname, even if not necessarily of the original poster, and since nobody else has said it yet:

"Fsck it.  Dude, let's go bowling."

I'm not so sure if I fit in here anymore.


  Hey all..!  :)

  What's to fit in, man..?  This is all an illusion.  Sort of like the Matrix...

  Sometimes when I look at my 'puter, it looks back...

  Urm, uh...yeah...

 

I still like this place, and I enjoy coming here regularly. 

This is the only high traffic 80s related messageboard on the internet (I know, I've spent a long time looking all across the 'net)

I still like this place after 5 years being here.  :)