To ALL of you who have known me since I joined in January 2002 and to all the other wonderful people I've met in this wonderful time since then....please know that I am truly sorry for the near constant sadness I display around here especially in April. For those who aren't aware....my 17 year old son Blaine was murdered during a robbery on April 26, 2001 at a subway restaraunt. I used to love this month as it represented the start of Spring, the beginning of baseball, the end of dormancy for trees, flowers...nature, my ex wifes birthday (23rd) our wedding anniversary (24th)...but now all it reminds me of is death. :\'(

To ALL of you who have known me since I joined in January 2002 and to all the other wonderful people I've met in this wonderful time since then....please know that I am truly sorry for the near constant sadness I display around here especially in April. For those who aren't aware....my 17 year old son Blaine was murdered during a robbery on April 26, 2001 at a subway restaraunt. I used to love this month as it represented the start of Spring, the beginning of baseball, the end of dormancy for trees, flowers...nature, my ex wifes birthday (23rd) our wedding anniversary (24th)...but now all it reminds me of is death. :\'(


I'm sorry, and I don't see it as whining. I see it as wanting support for a terrible tragedy.  Post away, Mark :)

Yeah, Mark. We are here for you. Don't feel shy about sharing your feelings.

You can talk, cry, remember, yell, laugh, and share anything you want.....


we are all here for you mark



Erin :)

^, ^^, ^^^

Ditto!

I agree with all of the people who responded above!

Thanks everyone :\'( I appreciate your kindness more than you could EVER know ;)

To ALL of you who have known me since I joined in January 2002 and to all the other wonderful people I've met in this wonderful time since then....please know that I am truly sorry for the near constant sadness I display around here especially in April. For those who aren't aware....my 17 year old son Blaine was murdered during a robbery on April 26, 2001 at a subway restaraunt. I used to love this month as it represented the start of Spring, the beginning of baseball, the end of dormancy for trees, flowers...nature, my ex wifes birthday (23rd) our wedding anniversary (24th)...but now all it reminds me of is death. :\'(


I don't think you are whinning, you are a man who loves his son and misses him very much.
my prayers and thoughts are with you Mark.

I agree too, what a fun gang we are http://community.the-underdogs.org/smiley/happy/dance.gif

I don't think you are whinning, you are a man who loves his son and misses him very much.
my prayers and thoughts are with you Mark.
Thanks, Tina....

I agree too, what a fun gang we are http://community.the-underdogs.org/smiley/happy/dance.gif
Jennifer...I must tell you how sorry I am for being upset with you on your "Fast Food" thread...but I also really appreciate you taking that "place" out of the loop ;)

Jennifer...I must tell you how sorry I am for being upset with you on your "Fast Food" thread...but I also really appreciate you taking that "place" out of the loop ;)


Notice I edited all my posts, too..

Notice I edited all my posts, too..
;) Thanks, Alex :)

Jennifer...I must tell you how sorry I am for being upset with you on your "Fast Food" thread...but I also really appreciate you taking that "place" out of the loop ;)
No problem  :)

No problem  :)
;)

Like wounded soldiers, we can help each other off the ground, Mark. Don't be too worried about your posts, mate.  ;)

Have a bit of Cheese... it goes great with wine  8)
you're not bothering anyone  ;)

 
Yours is a heavy burden we can't do much but we are happy to do what we can.  :-\\

Chin up Mark and do the best you can bro. I don't see any whining going on, what I see is a guy with a personal tragedy that needs support from his friends. NO APOLOGY NEEDED you can't keep it bottled up all the time or you will only make yourself sick.
You keep talkin' and we'll keep tryin' to make you smile. :)

P.S. - I hope you don't mind but I have stolen your candles and added them to my sig line as a show of support for the month April. ;)

I certainly wouldn't classify your subject as 'whining', Mark...

I hope what all the good people here have said has eased the burden somewhat (although it will never disappear completely...for Blaine's memory, it shouldn't do...)

You do what you need to do Mark  ;) 

We understand  :)

Chin up Mark and do the best you can bro. I don't see any whining going on, what I see is a guy with a personal tragedy that needs support from his friends. NO APOLOGY NEEDED you can't keep it bottled up all the time or you will only make yourself sick.
You keep talkin' and we'll keep tryin' to make you smile. :)

P.S. - I hope you don't mind but I have stolen your candles and added them to my sig line as a show of support for the month April. ;)
I don't mind at all! Thanks for your kindness, Joe. And thanks to everyone who took the time to reply. I appreciate it very much ;)

*stands on tiptoes* *hugs*

everyone understands...and you're a great person and moaning a little is a right we all have...I for one take great prode in my moaning lol ;D

Bus seriously you have so many people who care around here so I wouldn't worry about it.

*stands on tiptoes* *hugs*

everyone understands...and you're a great person and moaning a little is a right we all have...I for one take great pride in my moaning lol ;D

But seriously you have so many people who care around here so I wouldn't worry about it.
:-*

How are you doing today, Mark?  :)

How are you doing today, Mark?  :)
alright. How 'bout you, Andrea?

alright. How 'bout you, Andrea?


I'm doing ok but I think I'm catching a cough.  >:(

I'm doing ok but I think I'm catching a cough.  >:(
Not good! I hope it goes away before you do catch it ;)

Be strong, Mark, and try to focus on happy things.  :)

Be strong, Mark, and try to focus on happy things.  :)
Thanks Karen. knowing you, among others here, make many happy things for me to be thankful for ;)

Mark, take a look at this site.

http://www.geocities.com/heartland/valley/8314/

You shouldn't have to apologize for your feelings.  As your friends we should try to be a little understand at this time. :)

Although I cannot understand what you are going through, I can understand that this month is very hard for you.  If you need someone to talk to I am here.

You shouldn't have to apologize for your feelings.  As your friends we should try to be a little understand at this time. :)

Although I cannot understand what you are going through, I can understand that this month is very hard for you.  If you need someone to talk to I am here.
Thanks very much, Chrissy :-*

no need to apolgize,Mark..you've got lots of friends here and we're all about supporting you  :)

*slap* Come out of it, man! There's no need for insulting yourself! Whining? Posh! *hugs* It's okay, we're a family here. Supporting each other is what we're here for. So make that  :\'( a  :) and post in the Feel Great, Good News thread!  ;D
Thanks! I appreciate the smile you caused on my face :)

Mark, take a look at this site.

http://www.geocities.com/heartland/valley/8314/
Thanks Andrea, I'll give it a look for sure ;)

no need to apolgize,Mark..you've got lots of friends here and we're all about supporting you  :)
Thanks as always, Maria :)

Thanks Andrea, I'll give it a look for sure ;)


ugh, bad timing.. it looks like the site is down but says it will be back up within the hour.. it was working fine when I posted it...

Mark, you know that we are all here for you. Don't ever think that you are whining or burdening anyone with your feelings.  I can not in any way imagine what your pain must be like. I only hope that my words can help ease it in some small way.  :)

ugh, bad timing.. it looks like the site is down but says it will be back up within the hour.. it was working fine when I posted it...
Hey no problem, I'll keep trying ;)

Mark, you know that we are all here for you. Don't ever think that you are whining or burdening anyone with your feelings.  I can not in any way imagine what your pain must be like. I only hope that my words can help ease it in some small way.  :)
I really appreciate your words and feelings Rhonda, they definatly help me :)

Hey no problem, I'll keep trying ;)


I believe it's working again.. Sorry about that.

I believe it's working again.. Sorry about that.
Hey, not your fault Andrea :)

If it helps you get through tough times like this month then I think it's great that you have these boards, it dosen't bother me, now your Bruce Springsteen bashing, that's another story ;)

If it helps you get through tough times like this month then I think it's great that you have these boards, it dosen't bother me, now your Bruce Springsteen bashing, that's another story ;)
Who...ME? Bashing Bruce?? ;D If only for the fact that his father dated my mom once and ahe said he was a jerk...darn mom, we could've been rich :D

Seriously though, thanks for the reply and for making me feel better ;)